“It works out,” she said.
At the rotary, he waited for a sports car to pass in front of him, then quickly accelerated into the circling traffic. Three quarters of the way around, he turned onto the highway leading to the Brunettis’.
“Small town, I don’t guess you’ve had too much trouble learning your way around,” she said.
“I’ve got a lousy sense of direction, but no — this place hasn’t stumped me,” he said. He touched his neck. “There certainly are a lot of mosquitoes. We’d have gone out for more walks, but it’s impossible.”
There was a pause in the conversation.
“The damp did it,” she said. “I’ve lived here most all my life and I’ve never seen anything like this. Some kinds of bug spray they’re all out of, you know.” She shifted in the seat. “All that rain’s kept my son cooped up for a long time, and that’s not good,” she said. “You might have noticed he was in a very quiet mood when you were at the house the other day.”
“I didn’t expect him to make conversation while the TV was on,” he said.
“Oh, he does,” Mrs. Brikel said. “He gives more of a running commentary than some of those news announcers. When my son starts to think about something, nobody on earth can shut him up. He sees that television as a member of the family — talks back to it, thinks he’s in there as part of the picture some of the time. Worst time of day is when he should go to bed, because you know some stations stay on all night now. There never comes a natural time to go to bed.”
“I didn’t realize that,” he said.
“When the rain did stop, there was an accident out on the road one night. Someone put out flares just past our walkway, and it scared him. Two days later he still wouldn’t go out of the house.”
He thought about the tests he and Fran had gone through, trying to solve their infertility problem. What if she had gotten pregnant and they had been saddled, all their lives, with someone like Mrs. Brikel’s son? You put such thoughts out of your mind unless you were confronted with the possibility. Something about the way Mrs. Brikel talked about her son made him feel the boy’s presence in the car. His eyes darted to the rearview mirror. The big white laundry bag had tipped over.
Mrs. Brikel knocked her feet together. “He picks out my shoes,” she said. “I let him pick out things like that. He found these laces at the Ben Franklin. He’s got them in all his shoes, too. Something appeals to him, he never wants to have it change.”
He didn’t know what to say. He thought that someone more adept would turn the conversation — find a way to move on to something else.
“I know you’ve been friends of the Brunettis’ for some time,” she said. “Pia told me she wished she’d planted twice the flower garden when she knew your wife was coming, because your wife was such a lover of flowers.”
He looked at her, slightly puzzled. Perhaps Fran did care about flowers: though she never put flowers in their house, she had picked flowers from Pia’s garden as soon as they arrived. Did she have a favorite flower? He would have to ask her.
“Pia’s coming along real well,” Mrs. Brikel said. “With her trouble lifting her arm, I’m surprised she got in as much of a garden as she did. Wouldn’t you think she’d plant perennials? But she loves the annuals. If I went to that much trouble, I’d like them to spring up again every year.”
“You don’t have a garden?” he said.
“Something of one,” she said, “but my cousin’s boy, Jay, puts in so many things that all summer we eat the overflow.”
“It seems pretty idyllic to a city boy.”
“Have you been in a city all your life?” she said.
He thought about it. “Pretty much,” he said. “Yes. I guess I have.”
“When my son was younger I was in cities quite a lot, taking him to doctors. Waiting in doctors’ offices. My heart went out to Pia when she had to go so many times for all those examinations and treatments.” She looked at Chap. “How does Mr. Brunetti say she is?”
The question surprised him. He had no current information. Except for one call after his visit, when Lou said the doctors had found a drug to lessen the nausea, he hadn’t heard anything. The prognosis — or was it just the hope? — was that after she completed the treatments, she would be all right.
“I don’t know anything you wouldn’t know,” he said.
She nodded and looked down. He hoped she didn’t think he had cut her off. If he had known anything, he would gladly have told her.
“I was very surprised when he called and wanted me to come to Vermont,” he said. “It’s also a little awkward. Not being able to tell my wife.”
“I would imagine,” Mrs. Brikel said.
There was a long, awkward silence that made him wish he had put on the radio as they pulled out of the parking lot.
“Of course there’s not a soul on earth who doesn’t have secrets,” she said. “And it’s funny how one minute something seems the most important thing imaginable to keep hushed up, and a year later it’s something you could tell anyone.”
She was looking out the window. Land was being plowed for another new shopping center. The barbershop near where the land was being plowed would probably disappear — that funny little building with the stripes spiraling down the pole out front.
“May I ask why you mentioned it to me?” Mrs. Brikel said.
“What?” he said. He had been lost in thought about urban sprawl. The way roads leading into towns already looked exactly the same.
“I was wondering why you mentioned to me that you’d been here when Pia was sick.”
“I don’t know why,” he said, then contradicted himself. “I thought you might suddenly remember me and say something in front of my wife.”
Mrs. Brikel nodded. “You know, I only saw you for a few seconds that day in the snow.”
He nodded.
“You were both pretty bundled up. Hats and scarves and all of that.”
“I know,” he said. “It seems crazy to me now, but I thought you were going to remember me. I thought it was better to say something than take the chance.”
“Wouldn’t you have just said I was mistaken?”
“Well, yes, I could have,” he said. “But if I wasn’t thinking quickly … I don’t know.”
“Not that I mind your confidence,” Mrs. Brikel said.
“I don’t know what made me say that,” he said, this time really considering it. “Maybe to acknowledge that I’d really been here. My wife thought I was with my cousin.”
“You said that,” Mrs. Brikel said.
“Did I startle you when I brought it up? I think I was a little startled myself, to be saying it. Or that I said it because something startled me. That’s it: I said it because something startled me.”
Mrs. Brikel smiled. “That something wouldn’t have been my son, would it?”
“No,” he said. It was an instant, immediate response. But then he began to wonder what had startled him.
“The reason I was curious is because Mr. Brunetti has also confided some things in me. Things I never would have known if he hadn’t brought them up. Things that happened in another town, say. Nowhere I’d ever been.” She rubbed her finger on the edge of the dashboard. “If I could say something without you thinking I meant it as personal?”
He nodded. In the rearview mirror, he saw that a car was riding his bumper. He accelerated slightly, but the car stayed with him.
“I’ve done some substitute teaching at the elementary school,” she said. “I couldn’t teach subjects, but if the gym teacher or the home economics teacher was out, sometimes they’d give me a call.”
He nodded.
“And the gym teacher there was a lady named Mrs. Pepin. She had flu so many times that one fall I was called in every couple of weeks, and I got to like it and the children got to like me. Anyway, the point of my story is that when there was a Parents’ Night, Mrs. Pepin told me, she was always asked to bake and serve cookies. She thought some of the other teachers would do it next, but every time the night to have the parents came around the principal would call her in and ask her to please bake and serve cookies. After three years, she asked him why he always asked her, and this man, who was even by Mrs. Pepin’s account a quite nice, educated man, said, ‘Because French women have a heritage of serving, and they do it so gracefully.’ ”