A woman who had used her body for revenge and who had lied—over and over again—to effect that revenge had nothing left of innocence in her.
“Here she is, mum,” Ned chirped.
Mrs. Milch set a tray of food on the table. “I found some cheese.” The gray pouches beneath her eyes seemed to lengthen her narrow face when she spoke. “And we’ve got a keg of ale and turnip soup.
It’s not what the Quality expects.”
“I am certain it will suit. Mrs. Milch, an uninvited guest has visited my bedchamber. A very small one.”
“It’s them mice again.” Ned shook his head, snags of hair sticking out at angles. “The cat’s fixing to drop a litter. She’s run off and the snow’s kept her gone. Probably snug and warm at the smithy’s cuddling with half a dozen tiny mites this minute.”
“Fetch the broom, boy.”
“Yes, mum.”
“Gi’ the lad a rest.” Lord Blackwood came to his feet. “He’s dane a loud o’ wirk already the day.
The dugs’ll rout the vermin.” He gestured and the wolfhounds unfolded themselves from the floor and followed him to the stair.
“I shoveled a path to the road, mum, and another to the stable,” Ned said. “The gov’nor helped.”
He looked wistfully at the dogs padding behind Lord Blackwood up the stairs.
On the landing the earl paused and gestured to Kitty, much as he had to his pets. She had no choice but to follow.
Four doors let off the corridor, and another smaller door to the attic. She went to hers.
“Did you really help Ned shovel snow this morning, my lord?”
“Aye.” He was right behind her, closer than he ought to be. “A man’s got tae busy his hauns whan there’s naught else tae dae.” He was very tall, and were she to allow it he could trap her between him and the door with little effort. Then he might busy his hands quite usefully.
Good heavens. Errant thoughts run amok.
“You could have played cards with Mr. Yale.”
“Nae wi’ a brassic whelp, I wadna.”
“Brassic?”
“Pockets tae let.”
“Ah. I shall remember that if I succumb to his entreaties to play.” Her fingers around the doorknob were slippery. She imagined she could feel the heat of his body along her back.
“Weel ye open the door, lass,” he said quietly at her shoulder, “or dae ye prefer tae wait on the wee one tae come frae beneath it?”
She sucked in breath and pushed the panel wide. “I suspect the mouse is long gone now.”
The dogs entered around his legs. The larger one, as high as Kitty’s waist, moved to the hearth, sniffed about in the ashes, and sneezed. The other padded toward the window and set its nose to the ground. Lord Blackwood folded his arms across his chest and leaned against the doorjamb.
Subtly wiping her damp hands on her skirt, Kitty forced herself to look at him. His attention was fixed on the floor before her feet, his jaw oddly tight.
He lifted his gaze.
“I am not afraid of mice.” Her words came too quickly.
A lengthy silence ensued during which they stared at each other as though gentlemen and ladies who were barely acquainted frequently stared at one another without note.
“Whit be ye afeared o than, maleddy?”
“Very little.” Rather, the staccato rhythm of her heart, a condition caused by the proximity of a large, handsome man to her bed. A titled gentleman who spoke like a barbarian and helped little boys shovel snow. A man of such staunch Scottish loyalty that all of society knew him to be still mourning the horrible loss of his beloved bride years ago, engaging in flirtations for brief amusement only, never sincerely.
But his tragic story had no relevance to Kitty.
Except one night three years ago, it had. That night when he had looked into her as though he could see her soul and, without a word, seemed to tell her that weakness must no longer rule her, that she was worthy of better. On that night she had finally left her anger at Lambert Poole behind. She had broken free from wicked games.
She tore her gaze away. “Your dog seems to have found something.” The animal snuffled at the rear of an old wooden chest.
The earl crossed the chamber and crouched, setting his hand on the beast’s neck. The other dog pressed its head into the space between him and the box. Gently he nudged it aside. His back was wide, shoulder blades pronounced. Pale light slanted over his thighs revealing fine muscle starkly defined by his breeches. Kitty’s breaths shortened. She felt hot. Hot.
She should flee. This could not be happening to her, this foolishness. This preoccupation. It was irrational when directed at such a man, for every conceivable reason. But his body, his sheer masculine presence…
As though drawn by a pulley, she moved forward. His coat tugged across his shoulders as he pushed the heavy box at an angle away from the wall. She leaned in closer.
“Aye. Thar’s the hole.” He stood abruptly, coming toe-to-toe with her. He looked down at her.
“Best tae shore it up,” he added as though her brow weren’t two inches from his chin.
She swallowed against the hard pulse in her throat. “I shall ask Mr. Milch for appropriate stuffing.
Thank you, my lord.” She backed toward the door.
He moved to her in two strides, took the door in his hand, and pulled it to. Retreat cut off, she backed up against the post. He loomed over her, broad and dark-eyed and staring quite intently. But he said nothing.
“What are you looking at, my lord?”
“A’m looking at ye, lass.” His chest was so close that her breasts prickled as though they were aware of the nearness of solid man.
“Well, you must look from farther away.”
“Ye told me A may nae.”
Her throat felt like a desert, her belly quite as fevered but not in the least bit dry. She was honey inside.
Could this be happening?
“Clearly you have not taken that to heart.”
His gaze dipped to her mouth. “Yer looking tae, lass.”
“I am not.”
“That’s a wheen o blethers.”
“I haven’t the foggiest idea what you have just said.”
“Thin A’ll be showing ye.” His hand came up and around her cheek, warm and strong. Kitty’s breath petered to a wisp. His fingertips slipped into her hair at the base of her head, his palm shaping to her skin. Slowly, so slowly, the pad of his thumb caressed her lower lip.
She sighed. Nothing could halt it, nor the catch in her throat as he bent his head. She tilted hers back.
“I shall find this quite easy to resist.” Her voice was nearly even despite the careening of her heart and the liquid state of her knees. She had repulsed men in similar circumstances before. Many times.
She knew how to do this, even so far removed from civilization in the wild abandonment of a country snowstorm. The wild abandonment of her scruples proved another sort of challenge.
“Will ye?” He spoke just over her mouth, his breath warm like his touch. She sensed no expensive cologne of a gentleman but snow and fresh pine and leather.
“I daresay.” Her lashes fluttered, every nerve in her body focused on the sweet, slow stroking of his thumb. She fought not to turn her mouth into his palm, to feel his skin fully across her lips. “But I suppose you are not accustomed to that—ladies resisting your rustic charms?”
His mouth curved. “Nae aften.” His rich eyes were alight. “Ye were looking.”
“You—” The word came forth as a rasp. She cleared her throat. “You would like to believe that, wouldn’t you?”
His gaze scanned her face, then her neck and hair. She felt the caress of that perusal and the touch of his hand to the soles of her feet. He looked into her eyes again. His grin faded.