Later she donned a gown of modest blue and attended her mother at her wedding. It was a small affair, only family and closest friends. Kitty put on smiles, wished her mother and stepfather happy, and fell into bed exhausted from her pretense.
In the morning she saw her mother and stepfather off in Lord Chamberlayne’s carriage to Brighton, where the newlyweds were to spend a sennight’s wedding holiday while Kitty finally moved into her brother’s house down the street.
She returned to her bedchamber to pack, then wrote a note and instructed John to deliver it to her brother and Serena once she had departed. John frowned in obvious disapproval. But Mrs. Hopkins seemed content with the subterfuge, and Monsieur Claude packed a cold supper to be eaten on the road.
In front of the Vales’ Berkeley Square house, Madame Roche climbed into the carriage and fell back onto the facing seat with a grand sigh.
“L’aventure! Lady Katrine, I commend you.”
“Thank you for coming with me, Madame. You are very kind to do so.” She was quite abandoned in terms of body and heart, but at least the Frenchwoman’s company would lend some propriety to her journey.
The carriage pulled away from the curb and Madame Roche arranged her filmy garments about her. “As there is no snow, we shall return within the fortnight, non?”
“Depending on the state of the roads.” She wished she were never returning. She wished, like the last time she had taken to the road, she were running away toward an adventure she had never imagined.
Throat tight, she turned to the window.
“Mon Dieu, but you are thin as a straw. You must eat, belle Katrine, to support the strength.”
“I haven’t the stomach for it lately, I’m afraid.”
“It is very sad, this news of the wife.” The Frenchwoman made a sort of spitting sound, then her red lips pursed, black eyes assessing. “But what does he do about le bébé?”
Kitty shook her head, an aching in the pit of her belly now. “What baby?” Was Lady Blackwood increasing? Was it another man’s? Was that why she had returned? Or…? No. Kitty could not think the other possibility. He could not have pretended his shock at seeing his wife for the first time in the park that day, and otherwise it was too soon for such a thing.
Her stomach churned. Oh, God, she must not dwell on him and his wife together.
“Ce bébé, la! ” Madame Roche pointed to Kitty’s lap. Kitty looked down and saw only her hands resting on her queasy stomach.
In an instant a sickening flush spread from her throat to her entire body. She struggled for breath.
“This baby?” she uttered.
Dear God, how naïve she was. How foolish. She had never imagined. Never questioned. She had believed—
“You cannot eat, ma petite says to me.” Madame Roche shook her head. “But you sleep tout le temps of the day, non?”
Kitty gaped. She had watched Serena go through this in her early months. Even uninstructed in matronly matters, she ought to have known. Instead she had attributed her illness to misery.
Swift, prickly panic swept through her. Then, twining with the panic, something else. Something warm and rich.
Elation.
She gripped the seat and tried to breathe. To think. But no thoughts would come, only feelings.
There were no tears left to cry, and anyway she no longer wished to. She pressed back into the soft squabs and closed her eyes. The carriage’s rocking made her ill, but now she did not fight it.
He had been right to mistrust her assurances. And she had never been happier and more terrified in her entire life.
Chapter 26
Fellow Britons, I recently received the following communication through my publisher: Dear Lady Justice, Your impertinence astounds me. But your tenacity must be commended. I fear I have already, in fact, come to admire you for that. But, dear lady, if you wish admittance to the Falcon Club so desperately, you have only to discover the names of its members and apply to join. One, I regret to report, has recently left us. But four of us remain. Among these is myself, Your servant, Peregrine Secretary, The Falcon Club Impertinence, indeed. This Peregrine seeks to intimidate me with soft words and flatteries, common methods by which the powerful and wealthy cajole and control society. Rest assured, my head will not be turned. I shall continue to seek out wasteful expenditures of funds and lay them open to examination before the entire kingdom.
I am, it seems, beset by correspondents. Another letter came across my desk only two days ago. Its anonymous author (a lady, by the genteel hand) begged me to print it. Her reasons for wishing this were sufficiently intriguing that I do so now: To the Particular Gentleman it may concern: I am on my way to Shropshire in search of a portrait cameo.
That, my friends, is all it said. I am enormously curious and ask only that upon her return from Shropshire, the lady will inform us as to the success of her quest.
Lady Justice Leam cast the pamphlet into the grate and watched it float on a swell of hot air to the edge of the ashes, untouched by the flames. He pressed his palm into the mantel.
So, Jin, Yale, and Constance had not finished with the Club after all. And Gray.... Leam did not understand his old friend. This seemed foolhardy. Colin was arrogant, but he was also directed and disciplined, and possessed of a single purpose: England’s safety.
As Leam’s single purpose was Kitty’s safety.
Tomorrow he would don his roughest costume and delve into London’s seamy underworld once again. He would turn over every stone until he found the one under which David Cox was hiding.
Then, when Kitty was free of threats, he would bend his mind finally to deciding what to do with his wife.
Cornelia had not mentioned Jamie again, but Leam had only called on her once since the first occasion. She had fluttered her lashes and begged him not to divorce her. He had told her the truth, that he had no honest grounds for it, and would not perjure himself by claiming her infidelity, the only justifiable basis for divorce. He requested only that she remain at the apartment until he made suitable arrangements for her residence at his own expense. She said she preferred a smaller house so that she could spend her funds on charity rather than unnecessary servants. At the convent in Italy she had become accustomed to giving to the needy poor; she wished to continue that practice now in London.
He did not believe a word of it. But he didn’t care.
His vision blurred staring at the pamphlet. So close to the flames, yet not consumed.
It seemed curious that the one place he thought about almost constantly these days should appear in Lady Justice’s leaflet. Shropshire was a large enough county, and there were any number of places in it one could find a cameo, none of which was undoubtedly a shabby inn in a tiny riverside village.
The corner of his mouth crept up.
But swiftly his smile faded. He bent and snatched the smoking paper from the hearth.
At the ball, Kitty had spoken of a cameo belonging to Cox. The next day Lady Justice received a letter from a lady about a cameo, clearly intended to inspire a gentleman to take the bait. Had Kitty known something he did not? He wouldn’t blame her for not telling him. But…
This was madness. A sane man would never put the two together. After all, his eyes and mind and heart sought Kitty in everything anyway. He was imagining hints and clues where they did not exist.