‘You too. You look different.’
Josh gestured dismissively at his clothes, which were distinctly less nerdy than they had been.
‘I guess you can’t wear your father’s old corduroy for ever.’
‘I guess not.’
Joshua clapped his hands together. ‘Well, I’ve booked my ticket for Glastonbury and I might not come back. I met these people from FATE and I’m going with them.’
‘It’s March. Not till the summer, surely.’
‘Joely and Crispin – that’s these people I met – say we might go up there early. You know, camp out for a bit.’
‘And school?’
‘If you can bunk, I can bunk… it’s not as if I’m going to fall behind. I’ve still got a Chalfen head on my shoulders, I’ll just come back for the exams and then fuck off again. Irie, you’ve just got to meet these people. They’re just… incredible. He’s a Dadaist. And she’s an anarchist. A real one. Not like Marcus. I told her about Marcus and his bloody FutureMouse. She thinks he’s a dangerous individual. Quite possibly psychopathic.’
Irie thought about this. ‘Mmm. I’d be surprised.’
Without stubbing out his fag, he threw it up on to the pavement. ‘And I’m giving up all meat. I’m a pescatarian at the moment, but that’s just half measures. I’m becoming a fucking vegetarian.’
Irie shrugged, not certain what the right response should be.
‘There’s a lot to be said for the old motto, you know?’
‘Old motto?’
‘Fight fire with fire. It’s only by really fucking extreme behaviour that you can get through to somebody like Marcus. He doesn’t even know how out there he is. There’s no point being reasonable with him because he thinks he owns reasonableness. How do you deal with people like that? Oh, and I’m giving up leather – wearing it – and all other animal by-products. Gelatin and stuff.’
After a while of watching the feet go by – leathers, sneakers, heels – Irie said, ‘That’ll show ’em.’
On April Fool’s Day, Samad turned up. He was all in white, on his way to the restaurant, crumpled and creased like a disappointed saint. He looked to be on the brink of tears. Irie let him in.
‘Hello, Miss Jones,’ said Samad, bowing ever so slightly. ‘And how is your father?’
Irie smiled with recognition. ‘You see him more than we do. How’s God?’
‘Perfectly fine, thank you. Have you seen my good-for-nothing son recently?’
Before Irie had a chance to give her next line, Samad broke down in front of her and had to be led into the living room, sat in Darcus’s chair and brought a cup of tea before he could speak.
‘Mr Iqbal, what’s wrong?’
‘What is right?’
‘Has something happened to Dad?’
‘Oh no, no… Archibald is fine. He is like the washing-machine advert. He carries on and on as ever.’
‘Then what?’
‘Millat. He has been missing these three weeks.’
‘God. Well, have you tried the Chalfens?’
‘He is not with them. I know where he is. Out of the frying pan and into the fire. He is on some retreat with these lunatic green-tie people. In a sports centre in Chester.’
‘Bloody hell.’
Irie sat down cross-legged and took out a fag. ‘I hadn’t seen him in school, but I didn’t realize how long it had been. But if you know where he is…’
‘I didn’t come here to find him, I came to ask your advice, Irie. What can I do? You know him – how does one get through?’
Irie bit her lip, her mother’s old habit. ‘I mean, I don’t know… we’re not as close as we were… but I’ve always thought that maybe it’s the Magid thing… missing him… I mean he’d never admit it… but Magid’s his twin and maybe if he saw him-’
‘No, no. No, no, no. I wish that were the solution. Allah knows how I pinned all my hopes on Magid. And now he says he is coming back to study the English law – paid for by these Chalfen people. He wants to enforce the laws of man rather than the laws of God. He has learnt none of the lessons of Muhammad – peace be upon Him! Of course, his mother is delighted. But he is nothing but a disappointment to me. More English than the English. Believe me, Magid will do Millat no good and Millat will do Magid no good. They have both lost their way. Strayed so far from the life I had intended for them. No doubt they will both marry white women called Sheila and put me in an early grave. All I wanted was two good Muslim boys. Oh, Irie…’ Samad took her free hand and patted it with sad affection. ‘I just don’t understand where I have gone wrong. You teach them but they do not listen because they have the “Public Enemy” music on at full blast. You show them the road and they take the bloody path to the Inns of Court. You guide them and they run from your grasp to a Chester sports centre. You try to plan everything and nothing happens in the way that you expected…’
But if you could begin again, thought Irie, if you could take them back to the source of the river, to the start of the story, to the homeland… But she didn’t say that, because he felt it as she felt it and both knew it was as useless as chasing your own shadow. Instead she took her hand from underneath his and placed it on top, returning the stroke. ‘Oh, Mr Iqbal. I don’t know what to say…’
‘There are no words. The one I send home comes out a pukka Englishman, white suited, silly wig lawyer. The one I keep here is fully paid-up green bow-tie-wearing fundamentalist terrorist. I sometimes wonder why I bother,’ said Samad bitterly, betraying the English inflections of twenty years in the country, ‘I really do. These days, it feels to me like you make a devil’s pact when you walk into this country. You hand over your passport at the check-in, you get stamped, you want to make a little money, get yourself started… but you mean to go back! Who would want to stay? Cold, wet, miserable; terrible food, dreadful newspapers – who would want to stay? In a place where you are never welcomed, only tolerated. Just tolerated. Like you are an animal finally house-trained. Who would want to stay? But you have made a devil’s pact… it drags you in and suddenly you are unsuitable to return, your children are unrecognizable, you belong nowhere.’
‘Oh, that’s not true, surely.’
‘And then you begin to give up the very idea of belonging. Suddenly this thing, this belonging, it seems like some long, dirty lie… and I begin to believe that birthplaces are accidents, that everything is an accident. But if you believe that, where do you go? What do you do? What does anything matter?’
As Samad described this dystopia with a look of horror, Irie was ashamed to find that the land of accidents sounded like paradise to her. Sounded like freedom.
‘Do you understand, child? I know you understand.’
And what he really meant was: do we speak the same language? Are we from the same place? Are we the same?
Irie squeezed his hand and nodded vigorously, trying to ward off his tears. What else could she tell him but what he wanted to hear?
‘Yes,’ she said. ‘Yes, yes, yes.’
When Hortense and Ryan came home that evening after a late-night prayer meeting, both were in a state of high excitement. Tonight was the night. After giving Hortense a flurry of instructions as to the typesetting and layout of his latest Watchtower article, Ryan went into the hallway to make his telephone call to Brooklyn to get the news.
‘But I thought he was in consultation with them.’
‘Yes, yes, he is… but de final confirmation, you understand, mus’ come from Mr Charles Wintry himself in Brooklyn,’ said Hortense breathlessly. ‘What a day dis is! What a day! Help me wid liftin’ dis typewriter now… I need it on de table.’
Irie did as she was told, carrying the enormous old Remington to the kitchen and laying it down in front of Hortense. Hortense passed Irie a bundle of white paper covered in Ryan’s tiny script.
‘Now you read dat to me, Irie Ambrosia, slowly now… an’ I’ll get it down in type.’
Irie read for half an hour or so, wincing at Ryan’s horrible corkscrew prose, passing the whiting fluid when it was required, and gritting her teeth at the author’s interruptions as every ten minutes he popped back into the room to adjust his syntax or rephrase a paragraph.