It was hot inside his helmet. But Ronny walked and he sprayed. Like a tomcat, scenting all those docile miles with the stink of poison. He didn’t think of the poison though, only of Monica. His own breath soaked his face. The forests were hot and airless. Like this, he supposed. He was close to her. She was right. He was very close. And she was certainly a rare bird.
Five
He drove home later than he’d anticipated and hit the rush hour. In his keenness to evade it he’d skipped changing, so wore his white skin-suit, in full, but without the helmet. From the neck downwards he resembled an alien. Or an astronaut. He even wore his plastic gloves, which generated a curious friction on the steering wheel as he turned corners.
Pulling up to a roundabout in Lee Green, Ronny noticed something exceptional. A man was standing on the island in the centre of the roundabout. He was tall with a beard, his arm was extended, his left arm, and in his hand he held something that shone in the glare of many headlights. Something gold.
The traffic was heavy. Ronny waited his turn to join the flow. He stared at the man. Someone flashed their lights behind him. He took his chance. He pulled into the traffic. He did one circuit. He did two. On the third circuit he indicated left and slid into a parking space outside the World of Leather showroom. He sat for a while and gazed at the showroom through his windscreen. Then he climbed out of his car and walked back over to the road. He stopped at the kerb, put his hands to his lips and yelled.
“RONNY!”
The other Ronny gave no indication of having heard him so he whistled and called again.
“RONNY!”
The other Ronny turned, cocked his head to one side but did not move. Ronny waited for a gap in the traffic and then jogged over. The other Ronny continued to hold out the glittering object. It was a watch.
Ronny raised his voice over the honk of the traffic. “What are you doing here?”
The other Ronny showed him the watch.
“I’m holding out this watch.”
“Why?”
“I’m offering myself. I’m offering my time. To this island.”
After a pause he added, “I like that suit. You look like the Michelin Man.”
“It’s protective clothing.”
Ronny stared at the watch. It seemed familiar. The other Ronny caught him looking.
“Recognize it?”
Ronny swallowed, suddenly unnerved. “Should I?”
“I don’t know. It’s just that I think it might be yours.”
Ronny took a step backwards. “I don’t own a watch.”
“Yes you do. You’re wearing one.”
Ronny blinked. “I mean I don’t own that watch.”
“It has an inscription on the back…”
The other Ronny turned the watch over. Engraved in the gold were the words: “To Big Ron, with love, your Elaine.”
Ronny began shaking. His suit quivered and it made a strange synthetic sound, a noise like a gust of wind hitting the canvas jib of a small sailing boat, a sound like the beat of a swan’s wings in flight. It was clearly audible but the other Ronny seemed not to notice.
“I wish I could whistle like you do,” the other Ronny said, “but I can’t whistle at all. I never learned.”
“Whistle?” Ronny scowled, and then recollected. “Oh…” As a kind of strangled appendix he added, “In fact it’s my father’s watch,” and then, with startling synchronicity, his nose began running.
He rubbed at it with the back of his glove, but the glove was plastic and soaked up nothing. Instead it smeared moisture across his cheek for the chill evening air to tip-toe over.
The other Ronny continued to inspect the watch. “It looks expensive. Will he be wanting it back?”
“No.” Ronny shook his head and then sniffed violently. The other Ronny glanced up. “Is something wrong?”
“Nothing.”
He focused in on Ronny’s face. His gaze was like the pure sweep of a bowling green; it was flat and it was plain and it went on and on. Ronny was alarmed. He began blinking rapidly. A nervous tic.
The other Ronny looked crestfallen. “I’ve brought back some bad feelings. I’m sorry.”
He curled his hand around the watch so that Ronny was no longer obliged to look at it. Ronny said nothing but he kept on blinking. If he stopped blinking he’d start crying and that wouldn’t do. He’d never cried.
But he remembered the watch. Very clearly. And mixed in with the memory was the scratch of rough hessian and the pungent taint of cider vinegar. Something acrid.
“Is he dead?”
“Who?”
“Big Ron.”
“Yes.” Ronny nodded.
“The way you spoke earlier made it sound like he was still living.”
“He is living,” Ronny struggled. “I mean, in my head.”
Again he put his gloved hand to his face.
“Actually,” the other Ronny intervened, “you have a rash. On your cheek. You should stop touching it.”
Ronny took his hand from his cheek and swore softly. “My gloves might have chemicals on them.”
“You should’ve taken them off then.”
“They’re attached to the suit. I was in a hurry to return the car. It isn’t mine.”
The other Ronny craned his neck to peer over at the car.
“Green Volvo,” he mused, unhelpfully.
“Yes.” Ronny spun around and jogged to the edge of the island. His nose was still running. His eye began stinging. He’d been clumsy. He hated himself for it.
The other Ronny watched impassively as he jinked through the traffic.
Back at the car, Ronny unzipped his suit and unrolled the top half down to his waist. It was a complex manoeuvre that took several minutes, during which time the pain in his cheek intensified.
He scrabbled around in the sidepocket on the driver’s side of the car and located a bottle of water which he unscrewed, sniffed and then poured on to his hand and dabbed over his cheek. He repeated this process several times and then inspected his face in the side mirror. His cheek, nose and left eye were slightly puckered and swollen. He applied some more water.
“Do you want the watch back?”
The other Ronny had deserted his island and was now standing behind him, holding out the watch.
Ronny prickled, like he was full of static. “Not at all. You’re welcome to it.”
“How’s your cheek?”
“It’ll be fine.”
“You must be cold. Here…”
The other Ronny took off the old brown cardigan he was wearing and proffered it.
“Actually I have a change of clothes in the boot.”
As he spoke Ronny noticed the other Ronny’s arms. They were skeletal. He put his hand to his mouth. He felt an unexpected combination of deep alarm and lurching nausea.
“What?”
The other Ronny inspected his cardigan with some confusion as though Ronny’s distress had been generated by it and not by him.
“Your arms,” Ronny managed, through his fingers.
The other Ronny looked down at his arms, grimaced, and then put his cardigan back on again.
“I can’t keep the watch,” he said quietly, “I would feel beholden.”
Ronny was shivering. He went and grabbed his clothes from the boot of the car and began dragging them on. He felt sick. His mouth was drowning in a sweet saliva. Was it poison or was it pity? He couldn’t tell.
“Pawn the watch,” he said thickly, “and get something proper to eat.”
The other Ronny didn’t appreciate this suggestion. “I would never consider selling it,” he said and then turned to go, patently wounded.