So there was no real hurry to get back. In fact, it might be better to wait around, see if Paul’s car left the island. That way she’d be sure not to disturb them at their fun. Sheila sighed, began to unbutton her shirt. The sun warmed her and made her feel that life was almost worth living. It certainly wouldn’t do to go back to Connecticut after a month at the seashore without some kind of tan.
Anyway, she thought, dropping her shirt and leaning back, offering her tits to the sunlight, the coppertone look really goes over big with truck stop waitresses. And what about the girls who worked at the local McDonalds? She’d already been dumped by barmaids and secretaries and once by a minister’s daughter. She still had a long way to go before she hit rock bottom. The world was literally full of sluts, each of them a potential new heartbreak for Sheila Ross. Oh, goodie goodie goodie! she reflected cynically, undoing her jeans and stepping out of them. I can hardly wait to see who screws up my life next!
She hesitated a moment before taking off her panties. They were the only undergarments she fooled with. Her tits were small and she didn’t really need a bra. Maybe, she thought—maybe that’s the reason I go so hard for the girls who are stacked like milk cows. Sheila raised her hands, felt her little breasts, rubbing till her nipples were warm and stood up against her palms. Men seemed to go apeshit over girls with big boobs. Why shouldn’t I? And, God, it was so delicious to feel your face absolutely buried in plump, moist titties! Like Claire, and those heavenly, jiggly, D-cups of hers! Not the biggest Sheila had ever had, but the most recent and, consequently, the sweetest in memory. She looked at the painting, and her heart did a little flip-flop inside her. I’m good, she thought. With a paintbrush, at least. Too good. I can’t even look at the picture without remembering how great it all was, being with her, loving her.
Her thumbs hooked into the waistband of her panties. She looked around. Prying eyes couldn’t disturb her here. From the causeway and the road, her painting haven was almost invisible. She could see down, but the rocks and brush prevented anyone from seeing up. And unless she ran into a voyeuristic seagull, she could be assured of privacy. Smiling, Sheila took off her panties, laid them with the rest of her clothes, and stretched out on her blanket in the sun.
She liked being naked, especially in the summertime, under a dying sun. She could smell the ocean. Its salty tang reminded her of Claire’s sweet twat. Sheila groaned aloud. She was trying her Goddamnedest not to think of Claire.
She cupped her breasts, squeezed. They were small tits, capped in tiny brown nipples that were always erect. So it wasn’t just the caress of her hands that made tingles race through her titties. It was her, the natural, the sensuous Sheila, coming to the forefront. Could she help it? Could the sky help being blue?
“The hell with Claire,” she told the sky. “I don’t give a good Goddamn what she does. The only one who counts is me. I am numero uno. Me, Sheila Diane Ross! Me!” She squeezed her tits, and it hurt a little, and she remembered how Claire would grab her roughly sometimes, laughing like a child as she pawed and bruised the sweet tender flesh, then soothing away all the hurt with the softest, sweetest kiss that any two hurt nipples ever got from any two lips in all the history of womankind.
She shouldn’t be here now, painting a lost lover’s portrait by the seaside. She should be in Connecticut, where she belonged, and there should be a sweet moist pair of thighs wrapped around her head while her tongue played in and out of a honeyed, sticky-juicy gash, and another tongue should be giving similar service to her own hole, making her moan even while she ate. It wouldn’t be her own hands caressing her lonely tits, but the hands of a lover, of a sweet gentle delicate lover who knew how to make music with her fingers on the soft curves of a pair of small, sensitive breasts that longed and ached to be caressed by fingers like that.
Sheila began to writhe on the blanket. Her body flamed with lust, the sudden hot passion of her starved libido, and every time she brought her thighs together a pulsating heat shivered inside her pussy. She bit her lower lip, moaned, then sent one hand ranging downward, fingers extended like scouts riding point for the wagon train, ready to mull through the floss of her dark pubic hair and toy with the sweet juicy slice lurking under the tangle of curls.
It was her slice. She could play with it whenever she wanted. And her fingers. The only ones, it appeared, she could trust. Why was her life such a pit, anyway? She knew women who had been together for years, faithful and loving. She envied them. Eight months and three days with Claire—my record. Was it Sheila? Did something about her chase lovers away? She wasn’t butch, and she wasn’t a simpering femme either. She didn’t wear tuxedos, like Dietrich in MOROCCO, and she didn’t pretend to be Shirley Temple. She had never in her life strapped on a dildo and popped the cherry of a frightened virgin. She only wanted to love and to be loved. Jesus fucking Christ, was that too much for anyone to ask from life? AHHHHHHHHHH!
She wanted to scream it aloud, but the surroundings were so placid and quiet, the sea lapping in upon the shore, the soft flutter of gulls overhead, that she didn’t dare shout her joy for fear of disturbing the natural harmonies. But she was screaming inside herself, screaming madly, passionately, in shrill excited tones. Her entire body shivered with that mental scream and she could feel marrow melting in her bones.
Her hand was on her cunt, one finger—the middle one, longest of the five —pressing her slit. Sheila bit her lip hard, then shoved more forcefully with her finger. It sank into her pussy. She felt the lips spreading to allow it passage, and she pushed deeply into her hole. The lips sealed tight around the intruder, muscles rippling up and down, and she sighed as she tried to work her finger in and out of her itchy cunt. She couldn’t move far, thanks to the constriction of her cooze, but every motion was a poem in itself. The juices were hot and thick in her simmering pussy and she stirred them round and round with a questioning finger. Somehow it always came back to this, Sheila’s finger inside Sheila’s cunt, and somehow she knew, inside herself, that it always would. Some people were destined to find love, happiness, fulfillment; some people wore the badge of failure on their breasts. Some people were ordained by the Gods to be lonely and loveless and hungry, desperate for all they were missing, all they could never have.
She could give herself this much. She didn’t have to rely on anyone to help her. It was her own gift, from Sheila Ross to Sheila Ross. More than anyone else had ever wanted to give her. She sniffled a little—self-pity, but how could she help it? This was what she’d come to, what she’d always come to.
Sheila drew up her legs, till her knees were almost touching her bare tits. She had both hands in her crotch now, one of them assaulting her pussy from above, the other working below, stroking her cuntal slice from the rear, slipping back now and then to stroke the tight clutch of her asshole. She liked that 1:00, but not too vigorous. A delicate, featherlike touch, not a fist jammed up her rectum.
One hand tickled the sticky hole of her sex, three fingers stiff, thrusting in and out. The other stroked the sensitive flesh around and back. She caressed herself lovingly, wishing that someone else were doing her this sweet service. Her fingertip brushed the rosy bud of her asshole and she shivered a little. Her toes wiggled in the air. Sheila moaned, sighed, dug a little deeper.
The juice was almost pumping from her, each time she thrust those three stabbing fingers into her cooze. They went deep, fast, hard. Why did it feel so different when she was fucking herself? This was basically what men did to women, wasn’t it? Only men used a dick instead of fingers. She’d tried it with men. She preferred this, her own fingers in her own pussy. I am a lesbian, she told herself, as if she needed the reminder. And a compulsive masturbator. I am not a straight woman and. I don’t want to be. Ever ever everrrrrrrrr!