I told Wild Ginger that I would like to quit.
"I'd call it a betrayal if you dare." Displeased, she threatened to terminate our friendship.
I pleaded, almost begging.
Wild Ginger held my hands with great concern. "Let's talk."
I shook my head. "You must release me from this before something terrible happens."
She laughed. "You are just bored."
"Let's take a break," Wild Ginger said at nine o'clock. She looked at Evergreen. There were butterflies in her smile.
Evergreen had acted oddly since his arrival. He had been struggling with himself from the moment he sat down. He kept changing his sitting position. "Have we read enough?" he finally asked.
She avoided his eyes. "Would you like to have some tea?"
He got up and followed her to the stove. She lit a match and put on the pot.
Standing behind her, he examined the stove.
"Try it." She turned the gas off and threw him the matchbox.
He lit the match.
She turned on the gas. "Now!"
He reached out.
The flame ring looked like a blue necklace:
He turned to her with the match still burning between his fingers.
"Whooo!" She bent over and blew. "Are you thinking about burning my hair?"
They were inches away from each other.
His hands went out, as if by themselves.
She was held, her head, her neck.
He held the pose in shock, didn't dare to move.
She struggled, but didn't run away.
He bent down toward her lips.
Her mind seemed to halt.
He let his mouth fall.
My heart raced.
Gradually their kisses turned into a wrestling match.
His hands went to free himself from his clothes.
He moved her toward the kitchen counter.
His clothes began to fall on the floor piece by piece. First the jacket, then the shirt. His chest was now bare.
Her will seemed to be paralyzed. She let him wrap her with his arms.
Pushing her against the corner of the wall he rocked himself against her.
My chest swelled.
There was no air in the closet.
My sweat steamed. I tried to hold my breath and tried not to blink.
I saw his hand reaching down to his zipper.
The pants peeled off like banana skin.
His butt was dark brown, tightly muscled. It reminded me of a horse's.
"Evergreen," Wild Ginger cried.
He didn't answer. He got down on his knees, pressing her onto the floor.
"Evergreen!"
He reached one arm out, lifted her, and spread his jacket beneath her. In one motion he laid himself on top of her and began caressing her.
I was completely rapt.
Wild Ginger cried. I couldn't identify whether it was from pain or pleasure.
His hands unbuttoned her shirt. Her breasts popped out, and he threw himself onto them.
"No!" she screamed as if waking up from a dream.
He locked her back into his arms.
"No!" she repeated, pushing him away. Then she sat up and looked in my direction.
He seemed confused. He followed her stare toward the closet.
I became nervous. In a hurry to pull myself away from the peephole I accidentally knocked down a tiny piece of decorative wood frame.
"What is it?" He was alarmed.
"My neighbor's cat." She turned him away. "It likes to visit the closet."
The night ended. Evergreen went home frustrated. I came out of the closet exhausted. Wild Ginger thanked me. She was proud of herself and promised that she would not be needing me much longer.
I felt somehow manipulated and said that I would like to go home.
"You don't want to chat?" Her cheeks were rosy red. She was stunningly beautiful. "You don't want to know what I feel? You saw everything, didn't you?"
"It's kind of late."
"Your mother knows that you're at my house." She followed me to the door.
"So how do you feel?" I stopped and turned around.
She didn't seem to detect my emotion. "I almost regretted that I signed that letter to give up my personal life."
"You two… fit."
"What do you mean?"
"You make a good pair."
"He possesses a strange power. It is hard for me to fight it. He almost made me drink poison."
"Would you?"
She smiled. It was splendid. "I have made my commitment-Chairman Mao comes first."
"Then why do you fool around?"
"I wish I knew the answer. Part of me just can't resist Evergreen. I know I'm playing with fire. But I'm on guard. I have you, the fire extinguisher, on hand."
I wanted to point out that she was selfish, but instead I said flatly, "It was quite educational."
She giggled. "Was it your first time seeing a man's body?"
"A woman's body too, besides my own."
"That… thing, his instrument, is rather ugly, isn't it?" I stood up, feeling uncomfortable. "I must leave now, Wild Ginger."
"May I count on you next time Evergreen is here?"
I tried to gather my courage to reject her.
"Oh, please." She threw herself at me, arms wrapped around my neck. "I have no one else."
"It'll be the last time."
"All right, the last time."
I was reluctant to get up the next day. I felt dispirited. Thankfully, it was Sunday. I stayed in bed until noon. My mother thought that I was coming down with something. She sent my sister Erh-Mei to the market to buy ginger so she could make soup for me. It took Erh-Mei a long time to get back.
"What took so long?" Mother asked her in a whisper, assuming that I was asleep.
"There was a parade," Erh-Mei reported.
"Don't tell me the Red Guards are trying to teach the zoo dance again."
"That is exactly what's going on. By the way, Mama, it's Zhong dance. 'Zhong,' for loyalty, not 'zoo.' You can get yourself in serious trouble if you mispronounce the word. They will name you a reactionary and treat you like Mrs. Pei."
"Well, I just won't say that word again."
"I am afraid that you have to. The Zhong dance in structors are coming to teach in this neighborhood this week. Everyone has to show up. It's a public service you must attend. It's going to take up the whole week. The bosses at your work units have already been notified. All the workers will be given the work time to participate in the dance."
"I'll take the time to sneak home," Mother said.
"No, you will be punished if you do that," Erh-Mei warned. "There will be a performance at the end of the learning session. If you don't pass, your loyalty toward Chairman Mao will be questioned."
"But I can't dance! I have never danced in my life!"
"It's not a matter of can or can't dance. It's a matter of showing loyalty toward Chairman Mao. It's a matter of showing that all the people in the neighborhood are mobilized. We sing in one voice and dance in one style. It's a political demonstration to our enemies domestic and international. There is a competition among districts, and the instructors are already feeling very pressured."
"Who are these people anyway?"
"The Maoists."
"Well, to teach me to dance would be like teaching a mute to sing."
"You are lucky, Mama. The instructors are Maple's best friends, Wild Ginger and Evergreen. They'll let you take all the time you need. It might be fun."
"Yeah. And my old face will have no place to hide. Just to think about it shortens my life."
"If you are really embarrassed, there is a trick. You can ask to play the sunflower. That way, your face will always be behind the flower head."
I didn't feel any better after the ginger soup, so I decided to take a walk. Throwing on my jacket, I went out the door. After a few blocks I turned into Red Sun Park. The mid-March weather was warm. The park was full of pink peach blossoms, thick and cloudlike. The ground was carpeted with petals.
I lay down on a bench. Petals gently snowed down on my face. The sun's rays streamed through the branches. To avoid the sun, I turned my face to the side toward a bamboo pavilion. To my surprise, I saw a familiar figure sitting inside. I sat up to make sure. "Evergreen!" My voice betrayed me.