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„No.“ She clutched the sheet to her breasts. The burns on

her wrists were bandaged, she noticed absently. She had

forgotten about holding her wrists over the lantern flame to

free them. „I have to leave. I’ve been here too long as it is.

Etaine needs me.“

„Etaine?“

„Monteith’s daughter. She’s only a child and can’t fight

Monteith alone.“ She brushed her hair from her face, wincing

as the muscles rippled beneath the flesh of her lacerated back.

„She thinks he wants her dead and she may be right. Monteith

is capable of anything. Where are my clothes?“

„That bit of scarlet gauze you were wearing is in rags and I

haven’t procured any replacements yet.“

Nicholas’s eyes twinkled. „You could always try the bed

curtains again.“

„This isn’t funny. Etaine needs me.“ Silver’s hand

tightened on the sheet. „She has a lung affliction and – “

He placed his fingers on her lips to silence her. „I’m not

laughing,“ he said softly. „You say the child is in danger?

That’s not reasonable if the man is her father, Silver.“

„Just because he’s capable of begetting a child doesn’t stop

him from being a monster. He makes her go into a cage with

three lions every day of her life. Does that sound like a loving,

fatherly thing to do?“ she asked fiercely. „I promised her I’d

take her away from Monteith. I was going to wire Patrick and

ask him to send me a draft on a local bank. I thought Monteith

would give her up if I gave him enough money.“

„I don’t know. Monteith impressed me as being something

of a puzzle. Still, money might be the key.“ He stood up. „You

want the child?“

„Of course I want her. I just told you that I’ve made her a

promise. Now, get me something to wear.“

He shook his head. „You stay where you are. The doctor

said you should spend at least another week in bed. I have to

oversee the moving of more burned patients to the hospital,

but I’ll send Valentin to get your Etaine.“ He turned toward the

door. „Don’t worry, I’ll give Monteith enough money to be

sure he releases the girl to you.“

Silver gazed at him suspiciously. „Why should you do that?

Etaine is my problem.“ She paused. „I still won’t go to St.

Petersburg with you.“

He flinched. „I’m not without compassion for a helpless

child. I don’t demand my pound of flesh in every instance.“

She gazed at him, the frown still wrinkling her brow.

He laughed harshly. „My God, what do I have to do to

convince you? You want the child. I’m giving her to you. I’ll

give you any damn thing you want. As soon as you’re well you

can leave me and I won’t reach out a hand to stop you.“

„Why?“

„Why?“ he echoed incredulously. „I stood there and

watched Bassinger try to beat you to death, knowing I couldn’t

do a damn thing to stop him.“ His hands slowly closed into

fists at his sides. „I was helpless. I stood there muttering curses

and prayers.“ He paused. „And promises. One of those

promises was that if you lived, I’d release you and let you go

your own way.“

Silver experienced a strange throb of pain. He was giving

her what she had fought for so fiercely. How foolish to feel

this aching emptiness. „Guilt?“

He nodded, his lips twisting in a mirthless smile. „Oh, yes,

I’m capable of feeling guilt… and compassion… and many

other emotions besides lust and anger and a desire for revenge.

It’s unfortunate our association will end before I’m able to

demonstrate any of my more virtuous qualities.“ He.opened

the door. „Though you would probably only suspect me of

pretending to lure you into my bed again.“

„No,“ she said impulsively. Then when he looked at her in

surprise, she hesitated before continuing slowly. „You

wouldn’t pretend. I think you’re an honest man.“

He bowed mockingly. „Many thanks. I suppose I should be

grateful to be granted your trust in one area at least.“ He gazed

at her for a long moment, a multitude of expressions flickering

over his face. „I’ll send Valentin and the child to you as soon

as he returns.“

The door swung shut behind him.

Silver stared at the mahogany panels of the door for a long

time before she slowly turned to lie on her stomach, her cheek

nestled against the pillow. Her captivity was over. Soon she

would be free to take Etaine to Killara, where the child would

be safe. She should be wildly happy. She was happy. Naturally

her body would miss Nicholas, who had awakened it to

pleasure, but her heart would not miss him and she would

surely forget him in a few months.

Forget Nicholas? Forget his seductive golden beauty and

sorcerer’s smile? Forget the moments when she had glimpsed

tenderness behind that cynical facade?

Of course she would forget him. The tears running down

her cheeks were due only to temporary physical weakness, not

sadness. She must get on with her life, for there was no place

in Nicholas’s for her that she would accept.

She wiped her damp cheeks against the pillow. She must

plan her future, for she thought it quite possible that she would

have Nicholas’s child. If this was true, she must take measures

to protect that child. She had taken her pleasure, but the baby

must not be allowed to suffer for her recklessness. She must

leave the Rose as soon as Valentin returned with Etaine, but

there was something she had to do first.

But she would not worry about that now. She would rest

and gather strength and perhaps remember Nicholas’s face

when he had smiled at her. It could do no harm to indulge

herself when she would be leaving him so soon. Yes, she

would lie here and think of Nicholas….

12

„The circus is gone?“ Silver gazed at Valentin blankly. „But it

couldn’t be gone. I was there only three nights ago.“

„They packed up and left the next morning.“ Valentin said

gently. „Monteith arranged passage for his troupe and animals

on the Jefferson Davis to New Orleans. According to the

shipping agent, he was planning on taking another ship when

he reached New Orleans.“

„He’s going to Europe,“ Silver said numbly. „Etaine said –

„Not Europe. At least, not immediately,“ Valentin said.

„Russia.“

Silver’s eyes widened. „Russia!“

Valentin nodded ruefully. „He was evidently very

impressed by Nicholas’s affluence. He told the shipping agent

he was sure Russia would have rich pickings.“

„Which port?“

„The agent wasn’t sure. Monteith said he would decide

when he got to New Orleans and found what ships were

available.“

Silver drew a deep quivering breath. Oh, Lord, she didn’t

even know where Monteith had taken Etaine. Well, she had to

find out and quickly. „Where’s Nicholas?“

„He’s gone ashore to telegraph Randall’s in New Orleans

and try to have them intercept Monteith.“

„Those idiots will never – “ She broke off and her hands

tightened on the sheet until her knuckles turned white. She

must not become upset. She had to think… and act. „Valentin,

I need clothes. Would you buy a gown, shoes, and cloak from

one of the volunteers nursing the survivors?“

He gazed at her warily. „Nicholas won’t like it. You’re not

well enough to get up yet.“

„Would he like it better if I walked down that gangplank

wearing no gown at all?“

„Touche.“ He grimaced. „It seems I have no choice.

Anything else?“