He didn’t know if he could talk anymore, it was getting so hard to breathe, just to keep his eyes open, “I-I …”
“Don’t go to sleep yet,” the Indian scolded. “You must walk this last road alone, but you must walk it before you sleep.”
“C-can’t—”
Scratch felt the Blackfoot slip the long leather loop around his neck, tug it down behind his long, curly hair, then gently straighten it out before he held up the whistle once more.
“Yes … you can. Because you are a warrior. You must do this before you start your last, long walk.”
Then the young man brought his fingers up, gently parting the old trapper’s lips, prying his teeth apart as Bass felt himself sinking into such unimaginable cold. Eventually the youngster managed to slip the end of the whistle between Scratch’s teeth.
Leaning back at last, the Blackfoot brought his face down close to the old man’s, his two dark-cherry eyes looking back and forth between the good eye and that milky, clouded one.
At long last the warrior whispered, “Now … it is time for you to blow for yourself. Blow to call on the First Maker, the guardian of all warriors. Blow to call upon He Who Will Listen To Our Final Prayers. Blow, you old warrior!”
He tried, but only a weak whisper of air escaped the end of the warrior’s wingbone whistle.
“You must try harder, old man,” the Blackfoot urged. “The day you were born, the First Maker blew His breath into your mouth, into your spirit the very moment you emerged from your mother’s womb. Now it is time for you to blow out your last breath, to return it back to the First Maker … in the great circle of a warrior’s life. That first breath He gave you, now you must send it back to Him with your final prayer, old warrior. One last breath and it will be finished.”
He tried again. A little louder.
“That wasn’t your last,” the warrior explained. “The last will be strong. As strong and mighty as you have been a warrior all those seasons you have walked this earth. But now, you must begin a different journey. You will begin to walk on the wind for all time. So you must blow.”
Leaning back, the Blackfoot rocked onto his haunches, then stood, looking down at the white man. “This is for you to do now, on your own. Make this last prayer of yours a good one, old warrior. The First Maker will hear what prayer rests in your heart as you blow with that final breath … and he will be there to walk beside you on the wind.”
Bass sat there, leaning against the tree, blinking his pooling eyes as the young warrior turned slowly and trudged down the gentle slope. After a few steps, the young man whose life he had once saved, the young man whom Titus Bass had once sent back to his people … this Blackfoot warrior stopped—turned—and spoke one last time.
“Pray for what is most dear in your heart, Wind Walker.”
THIRTY-FOUR
He watched the young warrior trudge down the snowy slope until he could not see the figure anymore for the swirling snow that swept in upon gusts of cold wind.
Cold.
How he wished he could spend one more warm night with her. Just holding her, not even taking her in a fevered, frantic rush. Just to cradle her against him one more night. To lie there feeling her heart beating against him, listening to the soft breathing of their children in their lodge until the sky at the top of the poles turned gray and a new day was a’born. What he wouldn’t give to feel her arms around him one last night.
But it was too late now. So cold. Even his warm gut was starting to freeze in his hands.
The snow stung his eyes, sharp against his wet cheeks where his tears had fallen. So he closed them, wondering how he would ever have the strength to blow now that he was growing weaker and weaker. He didn’t have enough will left in him—
With a soft rustle of movement, he felt them approach, brushing against him on both sides.
Slowly Titus opened his eyes, blinked to be sure. And saw them. The Little People. And gradually the realization of what that meant made his throat go dry.
One of them, almost completely covered with long, unkempt gray hair, leaned close to his face and whispered, “You see us, old friend?”
“Yes, I … I finally see you.” He thought the words in his mind, his front teeth still clamped around the end of that whistle.
The Little Person smiled warmly, then peered down the old man’s frame as he asked, “Do you remember what I told you long ago about when the time came that you would finally see us?”
Titus nodded, weakly.
“Do you feel pain?”
Bass nodded again.
The leader made a simple gesture, and his four companions came up to stand around the old man. They reached out with their tiny, hairy hands. Without warning, two of them slapped him on the soles of his feet, hard. One of the others gently laid his hands over the gaping belly wound, and the fourth spread his fingers over the bullet hole in his chest.
“Now—is there any pain?”
He shook his head, struck with wonder, bewildered by the magic. The immense, bone-numbing cold was still there, so icy he had never experienced anything close to it. But … no more did he suffer the pain.
“Then we have done all we can for you, old friend,” the leader said softly as his four companions stepped behind him. “Do you remember what your Blackfoot helper said before he left you to do the rest on your own?”
He remembered.
“Good. We are going away too. Now you must do what remains for yourself. Close your eyes and make your prayer.”
Without attempting to speak, he let his eyelids fall. And with his total being concentrated on struggling to draw one last, ragged, liquid breath deep within his shredded lungs. There it was! Such warmth that he wanted to sing out in victory, to cry out in joy. Lo, those many years, the countless seasons he had taken for granted this simple act of breathing. And only now, at the end, learning that the First Maker, his Creator who had given him his first breath as a newborn, was now asking him to utter one last prayer with his final breath.
“Pray for what is most dear in your heart, Wind Walker.”
The young Blackfoot’s words rang in his head.
And he felt that warmth from his chest rising into his throat, at the back of his tongue, one last gush of immense joy and gratitude for all that had been given him in his life, feeling the hot tears seeping between his eyelids he had clenched against the snowy, icy blasts of cold … that final prayer entered the whistle. Shrill and high.
An eagle’s cry of victory as it leaped from the wingbone, into the air, rising … rising … rising through the terrible cold … far, far higher still.
For the longest time he sat there, the tears frozen on his cheeks, conscious of how the cold was gradually diminishing. Knowing that if he weren’t already dead, he soon would be. After all, Titus reasoned, he no longer sensed the bone-jarring temperature, nor the insistent tug of the wind at his hair and flesh. Even the rock-hard trunk of the tree he leaned against no longer mattered—
Then, just when he wasn’t so sure what had happened to him, Scratch sensed what felt like warm breath against his face, heard the gentle call of a Steller’s jay as it rose in flight—so clear and distinct he could hear every flap of its wings.
Afraid his eyes would be frozen shut, Bass slowly opened them, but no more than slits because of the bright light illuminating the meadow before him. No winter scene … instead, what he saw was a sunlight benediction rained down upon a green, grassy beaver meadow ringed by jack pine and aspen, fragrant cedar and aromatic sage. Shadows dappled the far edge of that glen where sunlight shot through the leafy branches in a complex tapestry of color … enough to convince him it was no longer winter. He wasn’t cold anymore. And suddenly he realized he wasn’t alone.