And what were his own feelings about Prioress Eleanor and her authority over him? Thomas wasn’t sure. In his father’s court, women had seemed peripheral to the lives of the men he had watched, but he had never thought they were either unneeded or unappreciated.
When he was a little boy, women had looked after him, although he had little memory of his wet nurse. A flash of warmth, a bit of color, perhaps. Thomas did not remember if she had died or been sent away, but he did remember his father’s cook who had taken him on afterward, a soft-fleshed, jolly woman who smelled of good things to eat which she freely gave him along with just the right number of hugs.
After her death when he was thirteen, he no longer attached himself to any woman and kept them all in the background of his life, like the men he sought to imitate. As a boy, he had always given due courtesy to each of his father’s wives and had grieved deeply, albeit privately, at the death of the one who had been especially kind. Various maidservants and ladies had ruffled his soft hair, planted kisses on his downy cheeks, then stepped back to look at him differently when his voice dropped and his shoulders broadened.
In truth, he had given little thought to women for most of his life. He had shared the favors of many with Giles, enjoying the joint couplings more than those he’d had alone. The lusty joustings had been pleasant for the most part, rather akin to scratching a slightly unreachable itch.
Thomas chuckled. “For cert, this prioress will not stand in any man’s background, at least not for long.” Nor, he suspected, would she dutifully scratch any man’s itch. She might be young and small of stature, but when she stood over him, watching as he examined the body of the old priest, he knew he had rarely met men tested in battle who exuded such iron control.
Despite the mettle he saw behind a soft woman’s form, her smile was warm and her deep laugh suggested more earthiness than he would have expected in a virgin with a religious vocation. Of course he had heard stories of nuns who had lost the fight to remain chaste, not that he had known many nuns, virtuous or otherwise. Neither he nor Giles had had any interest in bedding a nun, no matter how willing she might be, when there were women enough outside the Church to satisfy them. The daughters of Eve who dedicated themselves to God might be holier than monks, according to the Church, because of their greater battle with unquenched lust, but neither he nor Giles had wanted to risk the future comfort of their souls by testing any nun’s vows.
Thomas kicked at the stones in the path. Whether Prioress Eleanor of Wynethorpe was a struggling or willing virgin was really of no interest to him. There was nothing about her that had stirred his manhood. Had Giles been here, perhaps he would have indulged in and enjoyed some speculation, but without him…
Thomas stopped. In the quickly growing shadows of the late summer’s afternoon, something caught his eye near the sacristy door. He quickly knelt and reached into the high yellow grass and leathery weeds. Lost in the tangle was a small, roughly hewn wooden crucifix attached to a thin leather strap. He pulled the object toward him and into the light. The strap was broken, and it felt stiff when he grasped it. Both the wood and strap were darkly stained.
As he quickly parted the grass around where he had found the cross, he thought the ground looked darker in spots. Could the marks on the ground and the stains be dried blood, he wondered? He quickly slipped the crucifix and strap into his sleeve. Something to look at later or give to…
“Brother?”
The voice startled Thomas. He stumbled as he rose, spun around, and then stared into the green eyes of a tall, wiry, but well-muscled monk standing behind him.
“Did you drop something, brother?” The voice was deep. The tone was not warm.
“A pebble in my shoe, is all.”
“Soft feet to go with a clerk’s soft hands then?”
“My history follows me, it seems.”
The man did not laugh. “Brother Simeon wants to see you in the prior’s chambers.” With a look as thorough as that of a butcher appraising a cow bought for slaughter, the monk turned and left Thomas alone in the path.
***
“Sit, Brother Thomas, and have some wine.”
Brother Simeon poured a berry-scented wine into a goblet set in front of Thomas. There was no sign of the prior, but the receiver seemed quite at ease alone in his superior’s chambers. And in using the gold cups.
Thomas watched the monk as he settled himself on the bench just opposite him. Of middle years, the man was large in every sense of the word and seemed more paternal than forbidding, or at least that was Thomas’ impression. And, he noted with gentle amusement, Simeon was vain. The receiver had let his light brown hair grow longer at one side so he could pull it over the top of his head and in front of his tonsure, which he wore further back from his forehead than most monks.
“So what did you see in the garden? What happened to our poor Brother Rupert? Did he die with a smile on his face after a frolic with a wayward nun?” Simeon winked, his laugh deep and hearty, his smile good-humored.
This man may be more aware of human frailty than the usual androgynous monk, Thomas thought, but I find no humor in what happened to the old man. Why does he take it so lightly? “There was little enough to see. The poor man was stabbed in the chest. Sister Anne felt something odd when she checked him for signs of life. Then she and the prioress looked further and they found the remnants of a knife buried deep in his heart. The hilt had been broken off and lost. Only the shaft was left in the poor man’s body.”
Simeon’s countenance darkened. “This all you have observed yourself? You are not just taking the word of the nuns?”
“Such was my observation after examining the corpse, my lord.”
Simeon sat back, smiling slightly, and studied Thomas for a long moment. “Perchance the knife was from the nuns’ kitchen and we still have some errant nun to bring before the Church courts?”
“The shaft was the breadth of a dagger and well made. I’d say a man’s weapon.”
“Breaking such a good knife would take more strength than a weak woman would possess. I’ll grant that.”
Having seen Sister Anne lift and move a man’s dead weight with ease, Thomas was not quite so sure that there weren’t women strong enough to have broken a good blade. In most cases, however, women did not possess such strength. He nodded.
“And the cutting?”
Thomas coughed and turned red. Simeon reached over and punched him sympathetically in the chest with a softly closed fist. “Of course, lad. Take your time.”
“He held his…. Well, in his hand, they were. We found no other knife.”
“Then he gelded himself. We had noticed that he was spending an unusual amount of time with Prioress Felicia before she died. Not that we thought either had actually broken their vows… I pity the poor man. The guilt over his lust for her must have been great. Perhaps he was in such pain that he fell on that knife and it broke. Like a Roman falling on his sword. There is no other knife, brother. He killed himself with the same. The hilt will come to light, no doubt. Probably trampled into the flowerbeds by those light-footed women. Prior Theobald is right, of course. This is not something for which we should have involved the crowner…”
“Beg pardon, Brother Receiver, but when I lifted his habit, I found there was blood around the wound in his chest but little where his privates…were. Sister Anne says that it is usual to have little bleeding when there is injury after death. She believes he was stabbed first and then castrated….”