The Sky did not deserve its name. Far from being high in the air above, the detention cell was underneath the cellars. You reached it from the refectory, down a long, spiral staircase with cold water dripping from the steps. The cell measured about seven by ten feet. The walls and floor smelled musty, earthy. When the door closed behind you, all you could do was grope your way over to the wooden bed, sit or lie on it, and wait. You were alone in the darkness and silence for hours.
People said that when you went in it, you needed to try to take a quick look at the top of the wall opposite the door, where someone had painted the sky on the beam — a patch of blue sky with white clouds. Catch a glimpse of it before the door closed, if only for a split second, and you could find the strength to bear the darkness better without despairing. That was why the place was called the Sky. Everyone was terrified of being sent there or even of unintentionally getting someone else sent there.
“And you’ll miss supper,” Miss Zesch went on. “Did you think of that?”
“Yes,” Helen replied for both of them.
“Off you go, then,” said the supervisor.
She wrote the date and time of the girls’ outing on their cards, stamped them, and took no more interest in the matter.
Milena went to put her things away under her desk and then joined Helen, who was waiting for her in the corridor, already muffled up in her hooded coat. Milena took her own coat off its hook and put it on, and they both walked along the corridor, which was lit on both sides by the lights from the study rooms. They went down the worn steps of the wide staircase to the ground floor. Then they followed another corridor, a dark one this time because the classrooms were empty after six in the evening. It was cold. The enormous cast-iron radiators were all turned off. Had they ever worked at all? In silence, the girls crossed the school yard, Helen in front, walking quickly, Milena following with a gloomy look on her face.
When they reached the barred gate, they went into the Skeleton’s lodge, as the rules required. The old crow, alarmingly skinny and always surrounded by a cloud of acrid smoke, ground her cigarette out in a brimming ashtray and looked at the two girls.
“Names?”
You could see the bones beneath her skin, almost piercing her cheeks and fingers, where the blue veins traced intricate patterns.
“Dormann,” said Helen, showing her card. “Helen Dormann.”
The Skeleton studied the card, coughed over it, and handed it back to her.
“What about you?”
“Bach. Milena Bach,” said Milena, placing her own card on the desk.
The Skeleton looked up with sudden interest. “You’re the one with the good singing voice?”
“I sing a bit,” said Milena cautiously.
“Well?” the Skeleton persisted.
It was hard to make out her tone. Was it jealousy or admiration? Or a mixture of both? When Milena didn’t reply, she went on, “So do you sing — better than me, for instance?”
This time it was obvious that the Skeleton was determined to pick an argument. “I don’t know. Possibly,” said Milena.
Three years in the boarding school had taught her how to answer the supervisors and teachers: stay neutral, make no positive statements, always agree with them. Then you had a quiet life.
“So you don’t sing better than me? Come on, let’s have an answer!”
The old bag of bones was clearly out for a bit of fun. She lit another cigarette. The forefinger and middle finger of her right hand were stained yellow by nicotine. Helen glanced at the clock hanging on the wall. They were wasting so much time!
“I don’t know,” said Milena calmly. “I’ve never heard you sing.”
“And I expect you’d like to?” the Skeleton simpered. “You’d like to hear me sing a little tune, but you don’t dare ask, is that it?”
Helen had no idea how her friend was going to wriggle out of this, but the Skeleton broke into hoarse laughter, which quickly turned into an uncontrollable coughing fit. Unable to say another word, she put a bunched-up handkerchief in front of her mouth and, still coughing, signaled to the girls to hurry up and get out.
It was almost half past six when the two friends were finally through the barred gate and out on the road.
“Totally off her rocker!” said Milena.
To their right lay the small town, with its dimly lit streets, to their left the old bridge, with its street lamps and the four stone statues of armed horsemen. They made for the bridge.
“Are you mad at me?” asked Helen. “For missing supper? I’m sure my consoler will give me something for you. She cooks really delicious things.”
“I couldn’t care less about supper,” said Milena. “It’s not worth eating. It’ll just be burned soup this evening. I’m mad at you for wasting a visit to your consoler in October. You know we need at least two to get us through winter. We’ll want them as soon as it gets darker and the nights are longer. How are you going to manage when you don’t have any left?”
Helen knew her friend was right. All she said was, “I don’t know. I just needed one today.”
An icy drizzle made them screw up their eyes. They wrapped their coats around themselves and instinct ively moved closer together. The uneven pavement shone below their feet, and the black, sluggish water of the river ran under the bridge. Milena took Helen’s arm and heaved a deep sigh of exasperation. They looked at each other and smiled. Their arguments never lasted very long.
“How does the Skeleton know I sing?” asked Milena.
“Everyone in the school knows,” said Helen. “There aren’t many good things about the place. Something like that gets noticed. People talk about it.”
Her mind went back to the unforgettable afternoon three years earlier when she had first heard Milena sing. Four of them, all new girls, had been sitting on the steps near the refectory, bored to tears. There was Doris Lemstadt, who only stayed six months before she fell so sick that she had to leave; Milena and Helen, still at the start of their friendship; and a fourth girl — had it been Vera Plasil with her gentle blue eyes? Probably. Doris Lemstadt had suggested passing the time by taking turns singing songs. She started with a song from her own part of the country down in the plains. The song was about a soldier’s wife waiting faithfully for her husband, but it was clear that he was never coming back. Doris didn’t sing badly at all, and the other three clapped — quietly, so as not to attract attention, since it was forbidden to sing or listen to any song not on the syllabus, according to School Rule 42.
Helen had followed with a comic song from the old days, about the troubles of an old bachelor who didn’t know how to get along with girls. She couldn’t remember all the words, but it was funny enough to make her three friends laugh, especially the bit about a poor man whispering sweet nothings to a nanny goat, thinking it was his fiancée. Vera didn’t know any songs, so she passed.
Then Milena had sat up a little straighter to expand her chest fully and closed her eyes, and a pure sound like the notes of a flute had risen from her throat:
“Blow the wind southerly, southerly, southerly,
Blow the wind south o’er the bonny blue sea. . . .”
The other three girls were astonished. They hadn’t known that anyone could play with her voice like that, modulating it, making it vibrate, lingering on a note that swelled and then faded.
“But sweeter and dearer by far ’tis when bringing
The barque of my true love in safety to me.”
In the stupefied silence that followed the last notes, all Doris could whisper was, “What was that?”
“A traditional folk song.”
“It was lovely,” said Doris.
“Thank you,” Milena said softly.
That was three years ago, and Milena hadn’t sung more than half a dozen times since. When she did sing, it was a rare and precious gift, given when she chose to whomever she chose — one evening in the dormitory at Christmastime, for a group of ten girls, for instance, or in a corner of the yard just for Helen on June 14, as a birthday present, or, last time, on a summer afternoon during a long walk beside the river. As soon as she opened her mouth, you felt a tingle down your spine. Her singing, even if they didn’t understand the words, somehow spoke straight to all the girls. It brought back old faces, and you could almost feel a hug you thought you’d forgotten. And above all, even if you were sad when you heard it, it gave you strength and courage. The rumors had spread very fast: Milena did indeed “sing well,” but she revealed none of her gift in Old Ma Crackpot’s music lessons and choir practice. Her voice was like anyone else’s then, ordinary, with no special charm. Old Ma Crackpot taught nothing but theory in music lessons, and she made the girls sing the three authorized songs until they were completely sick of them, particularly the dreadful school song: