“They want you to go down,” she murmured, kneeling in front of Faber and clasping his hands between hers.
“Are they armed?”
The large woman nodded. Yes, they were armed. Jahn was distraught. To be found with Faber and Casal’s son was a terrible mistake. The Phalange would inevitably draw their own conclusions about the revival of the network. All three would be arrested anyway, and the Phalange would definitely have ways of making them talk.
It was now that Faber’s huge form leaned toward his wife. “Where are they?” he whispered.
At first Roberta didn’t understand what her husband meant. She looked at him with a question in her eyes.
“Are they there?” Faber asked. “There? There?” He pointed to what would be different places on the ground floor below.
“There,” said Roberta. “Near the table. Both of them. If they haven’t moved.”
Faber rose slowly and did something unexpected: he climbed on the bed and stood there upright. His head touched the ceiling, and he had to bend slightly.
“There?” he asked once more, pointing his forefinger.
“Yes,” said Roberta, and she suddenly understood what he was planning.
“You coming down?” shouted the man who had done all the talking downstairs, and he hit the living room ceiling twice, hard, probably with a broom handle. He had no idea that he was pinpointing his exact position and inviting his own ruin.
“I’m coming down!” replied Faber, and he jumped off the bed, raising his feet as high as possible so as to fall back on it with his full weight, landing on his posterior. The beam of the ceiling below him was too thin to stand up to the impact. It broke, and the bedroom floor exploded with a crash, opening up a gaping hole through which Faber disappeared. Jahn, Roberta, and Bart felt the floor beneath their feet give way, and they clung to the walls to keep from being carried down in the giant’s wake. The bed itself hesitated for a moment, leaning at a crazy angle toward the hole, and then it fell through the gap to land on the floor below. The faint groaning still to be heard down there soon stopped entirely, and there was only silence.
“Faber!” cried Roberta, and she ran downstairs with Jahn and Bart after her. When they reached the ground floor, Faber was already standing up and rubbing his forehead, which had a red bump on it.
“I flattened them, but the bed hit my head. Are you all right, Roberta? They didn’t hurt you?”
The couple embraced clumsily, and it was touching to see the colossus planting little kisses on his wife’s forehead. The two militiamen looked as if the sky had fallen on their heads. The first was lying on his stomach, his left leg folded under him at an unnatural angle. The other man, caught between the table and the frame of the bed, had broken his neck.
“We must get rid of the bodies,” said Jahn, and he started searching the dead men’s pockets for the keys to their car.
They went to get the car and parked it just outside the door. Then they extracted the two bodies from the debris of broken planks in which they were entangled and put them on the backseat. As he handled them, Bartolomeo tried not to look at their faces, but he couldn’t prevent himself from shaking. Faber helped too, muttering all the time, “My God, oh, my God, what have I done?” Jahn had to speak sharply to make him stop. Meanwhile Roberta was trying to shoo away the horse-children who were coming to gape, open-mouthed, at the strange spectacle.
A few miles from the village, there was a deep pond on one side of the road, half overgrown by rushes. They drove the Phalangists’ car to the side of the pond and pushed it into the water, with its two occupants in the front seats once more.
“An accident.” Jahn drummed the word home. “You hear, Faber? They had an accident. No one in the village saw them. If anyone makes inquiries, everyone must say the same thing. An accident.”
“That’d be a lie,” muttered the giant.
Jahn punched him in the chest. “Yes, but a lie to protect yourselves! Can you understand that?”
“I think so.”
In the pond, the roof of the car sank right underwater with a mournful gurgle. Reeds were already rising erect around it again.
They drove back through pouring rain. The windshield wipers worked hard; raindrops pattered down on the car. They said nothing for a long time, both still shocked by what had just happened. It was Bartolomeo who finally broke the silence.
“What was my father like, Mr. Jahn? You’ve never talked to me about him.”
Jahn hesitated. “Do you want the truth?”
“Yes.”
“Your father was a somber, secretive man. I often saw him at our clandestine meetings. I always remember his deep black eyes. When he looked at you, you felt he was reading your mind. It was extremely intimidating, and it made him very successful with women.”
“He didn’t talk much?”
“Very little. He was a taciturn man, but the moment he did open his mouth, everyone else fell silent. He still had quite a strong foreign accent. What else can I tell you? He seldom made a joke. There was a great melancholy in him. Very sad. I don’t know where it came from.”
Bart said nothing.
“Not that it kept him from being a hard man too.”
“Hard?”
“Yes, perhaps too hard . . . He never hesitated if there was any doubt of someone’s reliability. He would be in favor of eliminating that person, even at the risk of making a mistake, and he wanted the same to apply to him if necessary. He insisted on taking part himself in all dangerous operations: the execution of Phalangists, sabotage, commando raids to free comrades of ours. He took a great many risks. He was destined to die and he knew it. I often wonder if he wasn’t actually looking for a chance to die in his prime. Your father was no angel, Bart.”
“Was he tall, like me?”
“No. Lean, but not very tall. I suppose you must get your height from your mother, but I never met her, or I’d have talked to you about her, you may be sure. I don’t know much about your family.”
The car drove on through the ceaseless rain, throwing up fountains of water on both sides of the narrow road. Jahn said no more. Bart pulled his coat around him. He couldn’t have said if he felt sad or happy, confident or despairing. The picture of the two dead men in their car kept coming back into his mind, with their limbs dislocated like the joints of puppets as they sank into the muddy water of the pond.
It was the very end of the winter, and a sudden spell of bitterly cold weather struck the city. It froze under a dirty gray sky. People stayed at home whenever possible, and after midday the squares, avenues, boulevards, and parks were populated only by large crows. They too looked frozen as they came down in hundreds to perch on the bare branches of the trees. Only the powerful river resisted the cold, and its dark waters flowed on, never freezing over.
Helen gave up her walks and spent the afternoons reading in her room. She turned up the radiator, got under the covers of her bed, and immersed herself in a favorite novel. During these days it seemed to her as if nothing important could happen, as if the world were stuck in a groove. But she also felt that something profound and unknown to her was moving in the space inside this numb, drowsy sensation. As if the sleeping earth were incubating a secret, throbbing life in the warmth of its belly. She would have to wait. . . .
Sometimes the book fell from her lap and she sat motionless for a long time, her eyes fixed on a mark on the wall or the ceiling, lost in painful reverie. Where are you, Milos? I wish I could see your wild curls again, hold your big hands in mine, talk to you, kiss you. Are they treating you well? You haven’t forgotten me, have you?
These thoughts saddened her, but she needed to spend such moments with her absent love. She began keeping a diary in which she wrote to him every day.