Aba’s home. Bramblebound from the walk. There are steps over the threshold. He shuts the door behind him and locks.
A daughter descends, Isa he thinks, Asa she is, Israel drapes his coat over her head: the coat gray and old and wet a little and hot with him to be hung in the closet and not draped on the pillows of the bed, the foldout, the couchbed, the sofa convertible, in any spareroom whose hospitality has been furnished exclusively for the coats of the guests. He takes off his suitjacket, drapes it on a kitchencounter, then loosens his tie from underneath his collar unbuttoned, leaves it in its knot to remind: the day no longer strangling, not yet forgotten, never freeing; still complex, still coiled, prepared for the tightening come what may the next week.
How was your day? Hanna not waiting for an answer to the both of them asking; her nudging a trunk with a heel then examining, resentment, the damage done to her manicure while he greets his guests, whoever’s arrived. Though with not all of them yet and her not telling him that, letting him search and find only the regulars, the usuals and not his new partner already with his wife or the girlfriend, what’re their names, he comes back down the hall to embrace her — though her hands, without hug, are only held out to take the challah from him, and her mouth, which refuses his kiss, only tells him, instead, in a whisper: go upstairs, get thyself changed.
Hanna sits on this trunk as a handful of the oven’s guests gather, the wives just standing around, loafing, examining Israel’s purchase, passing it around for inspection — the single loaf he’s halved while at shul she hefts in her hands again then puts back in its bag to hand to Rubina who takes it to table.
How it’s unspoken, all of it — obvious to every guest that these trunks have been sitting here forever, for months, for years, incurring feminine disapproval, raised brows, the forcing of coughs; that there’s about as much possibility of them moving them as them moving themselves, though Hanna would explain, smoothing her dress folded around her as if she’s a package, merely wrapping, a box or container herself, short and breasty — her legs dangling, calves white above the veins, their skein’s twine:
We’ve been meaning to move them, but you know how things are…telling them they know, and, as if mystics or prophecy, they know: what with my philanthropic activities, thanks for reminding, how much I volunteer, the tzedakah, the charity with which I chair the meetings of schoolboard and then with the kinder: two of them aren’t in school yet and one, she goes only halfday. Nat.
I’ve got to drop them off then pick them up then drop them, the activities afterschool, extracurriculars, the clubs and the sports, tennis and swimming, enrichment, the study groups and all the projects, the labs and ballet, painting, piano lessons in violin and voice, tutoring, college applications and visitation, the cancer hospice and the old peoples’ home, the youthgroup and shul and, our Wednesday schedule’s the worst…as she leans to pick at the trunk, at a wig’s hairs from a wrinkled length of tape, gray duct that’s lost much of its stick.
Is’ schedule is packed, too, you understand: always running from one thing to the next, like a headless dinner; he knows this jeremiad well, rolls eyes from upstairs, news travels fast: that’s where the kinder get it from, my girls…they’re scared of the basement, and Wanda has today mostly off — explaining the arcane processes of packing and unpacking, of storage and steps, stairwells and ways, of narrow closetless hallways not enough space for all this, yardsale, rummagesale, waspnests in attics, of sumppump problems in the basement still partially unfinished as if to say, so shoot me and sue my corpse, this overworked, overtired body of mine and, nu, we’ve gotten sort of used to them here, patting, petting, the slow fall of dust moonlit through the windows.
We like the whole impermanence of the thing, like if we had to pick up and, you know, leave…like in the middle of the night.
By day, the house entire’s littered with trunks, suitcases and briefcases, boxes and cases, and the lawn, littered with life: a tricycle with leaves rustling through its spokes, a pair of discarded trainingwheels; rakes, some trashbags ripped through with branches, overflowing with clippings, some trashcans tipped to one side with neighborhood opossums and raccoons liningup amid the fleas and gnats gathering for their own feasts at the mouths; milk, how do they drink so much milk, and one of those big cylindrical waterdrums that goy in the black truck he delivers each week that he picks up the empty ones and so what’s this one doing out here with the trash. The mailbox hangs open, but there’s no mail inside and all of it’s bills. From the sidewalk, the house is white with gray shutters or maybe the reverse, three stories at least, too dim.
He stands in the street across from the path, the walkway up from the sidewalk’s street while she stands on the sidewalk itself, curbed at the lowest bend of the Circle she says, Looparound he says the Turnaround or About, taking the whole house in, its round plot. They’ve parked a length from the driveway of across the street neighbors, so as not to be found pulling up front and parking on the Shabbos he says, Sabbath she says, if she has to; there’re only three other vehicles, two so big they can’t be called cars, more like monsters these foreignmade mutations of steel and wheel in the we’ll go with loopabout or arounding (one, the Brooks’ new van, which’ll necessitate yet another garage reexpansion), and he hopes God how he hopes they’re not the last to arrive. Picking up the coat of his second new suit in a week (will Israel notice it’s the same he wore last Friday), draped over the driver’s seat, hunching it on, he shuts his door, stoops peering into the third car, that of a founding partner in another top firm he’d interviewed with that didn’t make him an offer, lives opposite with his wife the nonpracticing doctor and this, their midlife crisis convertible with its top up in winter, and, bareheaded and without scarf or gloves, he’s doing a little light accounting as she picks a stray thread from his pocket, unslit.
I think this is it.
You think?
Me.
Thirtythree?
Three three three…pointing to the numbers nailed once to the mailbox hanging open, then once to the siding its shingles hung off, one three in the latter display slung downsideup and so 3 
3.
I’m looking good?
That a question?
She’s drying her sweater off, holding the dripping flowers away from her far while she wipes, like their smell’s sickening, like she can’t bear being near them.
All daughters, yes — how many they have at the least?
At the least, he says, I wouldn’t remember, realizing he’s never seen or met the same kinder twice.
How many times: there’d been that once at the office when the older attractive and the second he thinks were around, don’t think about it how old she is with the breasts and the breath and he’d been here once before her, without her, dropping Israel off because he had a car and Israel didn’t, had left his but where, he couldn’t remember; and there they were, playing in the yard, in the front. Who knows what games. All had the same look around the mouth and how they appeared to swap clothes. He remembers to her one in particular: one outfit not red or yellow, the other fired halfway to blue if blue was like a grandfather’s, what do you call it, he means techeles, that purplish on one or twoish of them. Running around, a dash, don’t get your clothes dirty, your suit you just bought it new. Here, now, in the frontyard, he’s mimicking them at their fun, trying to reenact for her enjoyment: she’s unhappy being here with him and thinks him weak and fearful, acting differently around others, how he’s rushing for props to cheer her, clown around smiles; grabbing them up, balls for baskets and bases and for soccer, mitts, a ripped pinwheel, a fractured kite tailed with a jumprope, a holed pail, rusted spade, making her even more impatient and angry, I can’t believe, a tossing of hair, what I’m doing for you, her walking up the path then the six steps of the stoop toward the doormat — a message there, obscured, dirt laced into itself, Shalom’s script interwoven — then the automatic lights light on and she jumps, stares at him, startled.