The Sun grew too distant to be of use, and out of the old Moon the Pyramid-aliens built a new small sun in the sky—a five-year sun, that burned out and was replaced, again and again and endlessly again. It had been a fierce struggle against unbeatable odds on the part of the ten billion; and when the uselessness of struggle was demonstrated at last, many of the ten billion froze to death, and many of them starved, and nearly all of the rest had something frozen or starved out of them; and what was left, two centuries and more later, was more or less like Citizen Boyne, except for a few, a very few, like Glenn Tropile.
Gala Tropile stared miserably at her husband. “—Want to get out of here,” he was saying urgently. “They want to kill me. Gala, you know you can’t make yourself suffer by letting them kill me!”
She wailed: “I can’t!”
Tropile looked over his shoulder. Citizen Boyne was fingering the textured contrasts of a golden watch-case which had been his father’s—and soon would be his son’s. Boyne’s eyes were closed and he wasn’t listening.
Tropile leaned forward and deliberately put his hand on his wife’s arm. She started and flushed, of course; he could feel her trembling.
“You can,” he said, “and what’s more, you will. You can help me get out of here. I insist on it, Gala, because I must save you that pain.” He took his hand off her arm, content. He said harshly: “Darling, don’t you think I know how much we’ve always meant to each other?”
She looked at him wretchedly. Fretfully she tore at the billowing filmy sleeve of her summer blouse. The seams hadn’t been loosened, there hadn’t been time. She had just been getting into the appropriate Sun Re-creation Day costume, to be worn under the parka, when the messenger had come with the news about her husband.
She avoided his eyes. “If you’re really Wolf. . .”
Tropile’s sub-adrenals pulsed and filled him with confident strength. “Yew know what I am. You better than anyone else.” It was a sly reminder of their curious furtive behavior together; like the hand on her arm, it had its effect. “After all, why do we quarrel the way we did last night?” He hurried on; the job of the rowel was to spur her to action, not to inflame a wound. “Because we’re important to each other. I know that you would count on me to help if you were in trouble. And I know that you’d be hurt—deeply, Gala!—if I didn’t count on you.”
She sniffled and scuffed the bright strap over her open-toed sandal.
Then she met his eyes.
It was the after-effect of the quarrel, of course; Glenn Tropile knew just how heavily he could count on the after-spiral of a quarrel. She was submitting.
She glanced furtively at Citizen Boyne and lowered her voice. “What do I have to do?” she whispered.
In five minutes she was gone, but that was more than enough time; Tropile had at least thirty minutes left. They would take Boyne first, he had seen to that. And once Boyne was gone—
Tropile wrenched a leg off his three-legged stool, and sat precariously balanced on the other two. He tossed the loose leg clattering into a corner.
The Keeper of the House of the Five Regulations ambled slack-bodied by and glanced into the room. “Wolf, what happened to your stool?”
Tropile made a left-handed sign: no importance. “It doesn’t matter. Except it is hard to meditate, sitting on this thing, with every muscle tensing and fighting against every other to keep my balance. ...”
The Keeper made an overruling sign: please-let-me-help. “It’s your last half hour, Wolf,” he reminded Tropile. “I’ll fix the stool for you.” He entered and slammed and banged it together, and left with an expression of mild concern. Even a Son of the Wolf was entitled to the fullest appreciation of that unique opportunity for meditation, the last half hour before a Donation.
In five minutes he was back, looking solemn and yet glad, like a bearer of serious but welcome tidings. “It is the time for the first Donation,” he announced. “Which of you—”
“Him,” said Tropile quickly, pointing. Boyne opened his eyes calmly and nodded. He got to his feet, made a formal leavetaking bow to Tropile, and followed the Keeper toward his Donation and his death. As they were going out Tropile coughed a minor supplication. The Keeper paused. “What is it, Wolf?”
Tropile showed him the empty water pitcher—empty, all right; he had emptied it out the window.
“My apologies,” the Keeper said, blushing, and hurried Boyne along. He came back almost at once to fill it. He didn’t even wait to watch the ceremonial Donation.
Tropile stood watching him, his sub-adrenals beginning to pound like the rolling boil of Well-Aged Water. The Keeper was at a disadvantage. He had been neglectful of his charge—a broken stool; no water in the pitcher. And a Citizen, brought up in a Citizen’s mores of consideration and tact, could not help but be humiliated, seek to make amends.
Tropile pressed his advantage home. “Wait,” he said winsomely to the Keeper. “I’d like to talk to you.”
The Keeper hesitated, torn. “The Donation—”
“Damn the Donation,” Tropile said calmly.
“After all, what is it but sticking a pipe into a man’s backbone and sucking out the juice that keeps him alive? It’s killing, that’s all.”
Crash, crash, crash. The Keeper turned literally white. Tropile was speaking blasphemy, and he wasn’t stopping.
“I want to tell you about my wife,” Tropile went on, assuming a confidential air. “You know, there’s a real woman. Not one of those frozen-up Citizenesses, you know? Why, she and I used to—” He hesitated. “You’re a man of the world, aren’t you?” he demanded. “I mean, you’ve seen life.”
“I—suppose so,” the Keeper said faintly.
“Then you won’t be shocked, I know,” Tropile lied. “Well, let me tell you, there’s a lot to women that these stuffed-shirt Citizens don’t know about. Boy! Ever see a woman’s knee?” He sniggered. “Ever kiss one, with—” He winked—”with the light on? Ever sit in a big arm-chair, say, with a woman in your lap?—all soft and heavy, and kind of warm, and slumped up against your chest, you know, and—” He stopped and swallowed; he was almost making himself retch; it was hard to say these things. But he forced himself to go on: “Well, she and I used to do those things. Plenty. All the time. That’s what I call a real woman,”
He stopped—warned by the Keeper’s sudden change of expression, glazed eyes, strangling breath. He had gone too far. He had only wanted to paralyze the man, revolt him, put him out of commission; but he was overdoing it; he jumped forward and caught the Keeper as he fell, fainting.
Callously Tropile emptied the water pitcher over the man.
The Keeper sneezed and sat up groggily.
He focused his eyes on Tropile, and abruptly blushed.
Tropile said harshly: “I wish to see the new sun from the street.”
The request was incredible! The Keeper could not possibly allow dangerous liberties to a guest; that was not Citizenship, since the job of a Keeper was to Keep. But Tropile’s filthy mouth had unsettled Citizen Harmane.
He floundered, choking on the obscenities he had heard. He was torn between two courses of action, both all but obligatory, both all but impossible. Tropile was in detention regarding the Fifth Regulation. That was all there was to it—looked at from one point of view. Such persons were not to be released from their quarters: the Keeper knew it, the world knew it, Tropile knew it.
It was an obscenity almost greater than the lurid tales of perverted lust, for Tropile had asked something which was impossible! No one ever asked anything that was impossible to grant—for no one could ever refuse anything; that was utterly graceless, unthinkable.
One could only attempt to compromise. The Keeper stammeringly said: “May I—May I let you see the new sun from the corridor?” And even that was wretchedly wrong; but he had to offer something. One always offered something. The Keeper had never since babyhood given a flat “no” to anybody about anything. No Citizen had. A flat “no” led to hard feelings, strong words—imaginably, even blows.