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Surplus of information such as that kid with a regular contact smoker’s hack at eleven studying rotation, is that the kid assembling facts on the sub-Iranian desert channels? Because if so time has passed; because in that next room the kid is four years older at least because he’s studying sunspots now and has learned that sunspots rotate around the sun they are part of that itself doesn’t rotate like something solid, and that when the sunspots along the sun’s equator speed up, this may mean an ice age is coming. Like the Little Ice Age which began in the middle of the seventeenth century and lasted seventy years and is called the Maunder Minimum and caused suffering in Europe. The seventeenth century is the sixteen hundreds.

But sunspots have been on the scene for centuries, and, as an inventor based in nineteenth-century New York City told a very young woman from the immediate hinterlands on her way to and then later from experiences westward, sunspots and money seem close kin by cycles coming and going, but that is mathematical moonshine (she smiled) and little more (for she was interested in the planet Mars and how livings were made and Africa and the anti-vivisectionists and tall buildings in Chicago moving against the great cloudy American winds, and interested in Indians and not only in general). He and she had met eight years before in New York harbor on Bedloe’s Island, she scarcely twelve—1885—fledgling observer come with her father who brought out a small weekly newspaper in New Jersey to see the more or less uncrated pieces of the Statue of Liberty; and, standing in unmown scrub grass, she watched over the shoulder of a photographer taking the Statue’s detached face from the inside, which though inside out gazed through the open frame of its crate dolefully and dark-cheeked (and was there even a touch of the Native American or jojoba-au-lait there?) and with huge, curved Grecian pout gazed back at the photographer in front of the girl from the hinterlands yet stared (did the Statue) a hair to their left as if over their left shoulders like a person at something beyond them until this twelve-year-old who looked thirteen from New Jersey heard behind her a voice muttering sotto voce, "Too big— never get the damn thing together. Facing the wrong direction, for Pete’s sake. Unequaled, my foot," and she turned, amused, and he asked her, 4’What’s your name?" and when she said, "Margaret," he said, this weathered old Hermit-Inventor of New York, "Go west, young girl, that’s where you must go, and you will," and "Look her in the eye, you’ll see what she never will, a whole world outside tracing your window and bent like weather by light." And Margaret said, "Of course she won’t, because she’s only a statue," but Margaret stared hard into one of those understandable eyes and when she turned with her small leather notebook in hand, "How do you know?" she retorted; whereupon the Inventor of New York with the wind of the harbor uniting them, retorted in his turn, "I bet you can recite poetry." Thinking this tall, brownish man with squint-small cavernous blues for eyes rude and funny, but hearing her name called in warning from the far side of the Statue’s strewn sections, she thereupon recited what came to mind:

. . ever drifting, drifting, drifting

On the shifting

Currents of the restless heart;

Till at length in books recorded,

They, like hoarded

Household words, no more depart . .

and furthermore,

Far or forgot to me is near

But the brownish man with the blue eyes murmured, "Very good, very good." And Margaret went on:

If the red slayer think he slays,

Or if the slain think he is slain,

They know not well the subtle ways

I keep, and pass, and turn again. .

And when, on hearing her name closer by yet in a new way so she felt she was much older (this she told her grandson one day half a century later), she was asked by the Inventor her birthday, she told him hoping for a present; and then she felt a grip upon her arm that drew her away toward other pieces of the Statue so firmly the grip is like the tone of her father’s protective voice, with whom she is jointly visiting Bedloe’s Island. But(?) Go west, young girl, young woman? Who has the time?

For we felt late.

Yet replays are available. As we for them. So we saw whatever from new angles and in an order not up to us but we at least felt it could have been. Just as we got to be at high times the very angles we saw by, and knew in a rush this was none other than the angels sharing what they could with us— their intuitions not unlike what we term telepathy; their sympathy with another being or beings as close as what our own recent formulae infer to be Simultaneous Reincarnation; their patience much like the mind-bending trip our recent research promises, mapped of detours that arrive by curves that prove parallel by crossing. The replays will help and we should be able to replay them in future in any order why even a child could think up. But then we came down unavoidably and into another medium also watery but then we felt no more like angels. We did feel collective knowledge in excess of the event our preparation targeted: an event which was almost too much like itself, to wit a sort of execution. Weren’t we sure? And weren’t we there? Weren’t we even the ones meant? Breath breath breath breath breath. If you’re upset it’s because you want to be, it’s coming from you, you know, not the squad facing you in the prime playground. We already remember, and have we even seen it? Whatever it is, it weighs less while costing the same, yet can get into the habit of looking like it weighs nothing or is divorced from the concept of weight until we step quickly to one side of its shadow and see that, sure, it has weight. And then we see we remembered, unlike prior angels who needed no such process.

How we remember is something else, a whole nether question down the worm-road’s thread eroding some exact degree of blood between the diva’s doctor’s friend the Ojibway healer and guide and his one-third-Sioux part-Navajo cousin, a father-sky of turquoise upon his shoulders, a mother-earth beneath his pony’s hooves. And this cousin is in turn so distantly connected to a Navajo Prince of the early 1890s that we need even more justly define that kinship, maybe with this very patience coming to us periodically like refractions through waters of rain and bright dusts of air. So that in doing so we know more than we did or thought; and it will not go away, the northern bison tongue which that Navajo Prince held fast to the study of until violently interrupted and held fast to still, while he crossed the Pacific-Atlantic land-bridge between New Mexico and New York, holding always in his bag or pocket a section of bison’s tongue which he knew could yield active force immeasurable if only the layers of its fiber and light could be touched in a manner that the Great Spirit must already have told us in the loaded dreams some wide mountains experience. Meanwhile, we might just reduce that kinship to questions that are more lasting and alive than answers, if it had not already been done.