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“I just don’t have anyone to leave my child at home with tomorrow.”

— Yeah. If you had money, you would hire the best nanny.

— My husband’s passport has expired, but he needs to fly to another country.

— For work?

— Yes.

— Change the ticket.

— I can not. A delegation is waiting there for major negotiations.

— If you have money, then: A) you will skip these negotiations without much damage to yourself, B) you will agree that a colleague will do this for you, send him there at your own expense, C) you will find an agency that will legally do it for you passport in a short time.

— It turns out that money decides everything?

— Almost all.

I'm not talking about difficult times now, such as serious illness or loss. At such moments, you should not have sex, otherwise you will generally feel disgusted with it in the future.

Is this commercialism? Maybe I'm too focused on finances, and with my dear paradise and in the hut?

Or maybe the option is to live in a tent or hut in Bali and constantly meditate?

Well, you first need to buy a ticket to Bali, and also live there for something.

Can a person without money and without a fixed place of residence experience admiration in sex and orgasms?

Probably if he has already descended to the level of the animal and completely turned off the motzk. Well, that is, he never thinks about anything at all, except “where to drink.” Then, most likely, he will lose his excitement. It's hard to come during withdrawal, I guess.

The extreme option is a midas man who is so greedy that he always doesn’t have enough money. He doesn't treat them as a means to solve problems, he loves them themselves. More, more, more, just to be there, you know?

There are extremes, and between them there is a scale. And it’s optimal to be so well off that you’re active and have enough to cover the necessary expenses so you don’t have to worry about it during sex.

Let's play. You will tell me problems, I will tell you how they can be solved with money.

— I caught a cold, but if I take sick leave, I’ll be fired. Small children, no husband, no parents either. Friends are working.

— Take sick leave at your own expense, and at this time look for another job through the network. Invite a nanny and a housekeeper to look after you, feed you, and go to the pharmacy.

— The country house burned down, there was no insurance.

— Hire a good lawyer and investigator to find out the cause of the fire, find the person responsible and get money from him for the house.

— I parked in the wrong place, the car was taken away by a tow truck.

— Pick it up, pay and don’t put it anywhere else.

— They fired me from their feeding position, now there will be no such income.

— Well, you are lying. If you worked there efficiently and well, then your reputation would allow you to quickly find a good place. If you worked poorly, then urgently buy yourself courses with the saved-up money, so that you don’t make such mistakes again and continue to work well. You have to pay for mistakes, and therefore you need accumulated funds. Once you learn, you will no longer wonder about work. You will find the same cool one again, or return this one.

More? OK then. Did you like it. Write me letters about how you managed to solve a household problem with the help of money.

— A nephew or son is on the verge of expulsion from the University.

— Pay the dean. (No, I’m kidding of course, it’s immoral, and I never do that). Find out what's wrong with the child. If he is a drug addict, send him to Narconon, it is expensive, but effective and no psychiatrists. If he wants to change his activity, and here he does not realize himself in any way, transfer him to a place where he will realize himself. If he wants to study here, then send him to a two-day “Learn to Learn” course, after which you can show the dean that the boy has changed, understood the principle of learning, and return to the course.

— What if they don’t take it anyway?

— Here I would recommend that you and your son take another course, “Communication is Joy.” And then you both can convince the dean.

At twenty-three, I still didn’t know about such a course (in case you want to remind me of my failure).

You know, I understand each of you. I see your problems as my own. By the way, I actually visited many of them.

Therefore, do not throw me out of the clan as a boastful snob. I'm the same.

For example, one day my husband and I separated because of money.

We borrowed two and a half million rubles and found ourselves in a situation where we didn’t get what we wanted, but we couldn’t give it back either, because we’d spent it all and didn’t earn any new ones.

We then had sex mechanically, rarely, and constantly fought in between.

— It's all because of you.

— What are you talking about? And who begged me to take out loans?

“You’re an adult, you wouldn’t want to,” he refused.

— Yes? You are so smart now. Does this mean I have to take the rap? And you say you’re not in business. How to borrow debts from people, you're good. How should I be responsible for them? Should I immediately?

— Fuck you! — She went there herself and for a long time.

Oh, that was great! We were hot and brave then. Unbridled and passionate.

Is this how they usually show foreplay before wild sex in novels?

This is all untrue. At such moments, you are not passionate, but offended, angry, with a sour expression and emptiness inside.

You've probably seen how after this in films people throw themselves at each other and they have real passion.

So, as an option, the heroes managed to forgive each other and realize love in a split second. But ninety-nine percent of the time it's just staged. This is the idea of the director, screenwriter, and that’s it.

I've seen couples like this together. At first they forgave each other after a quarrel before coitus, and then they stopped doing this, as a result, love disappeared, sex disappeared, they got divorced.

My husband and I did not survive this moment then. Still, they broke up. It was two thousand and twelve. I clearly understood that if it weren’t for the issue of money, we would have managed it.

There is one more nuance. This is such a thing as possession. Well, that is, how much can you generally afford to have.

Looking now at my internal capabilities and abilities, I understand that if I had borrowed another five million back then, we would have achieved the goal, realized it, realized ourselves, earned money, increased the figure and repaid the debt. And most importantly, they wouldn’t quarrel and break up.

Does it sound scary?

Few people think like that.

I didn’t have enough gunpowder and self-confidence then, although later I saw a lot of examples of people not giving up and winning.

Do you know why I was hysterical, why I panicked?

My cousin was killed in St. Petersburg the year before. He was only forty, an entrepreneur, husband and father of a small son, he fell under someone’s hand, and I don’t even know what happened there.

My mother constantly reminded me of Vita. For her, my move to the City of Broken Lanterns turned out to be a huge stress. And we both succumbed to the influence.

Every time we talked on the phone, she told me: “Be careful.”

And she is a mother, you can understand her, but it is completely unimportant to synchronize with her emotionally.