“I never had kids,” says Mr. Bocanegra, closing in on Giraut. “I'm basically a childless person. No one understands that pain. That hollowness inside.” The face of Mr. Bocanegra, Show Business Impresario, once again adopts that expression of emotional pain that reminds one of a melodramatic silent film actor with stomach problems. Then he extends his enormous arms to both sides of Lucas Giraut's body and opens his hairy, ring-filled hands wide, and before Giraut can react he traps him in an embrace so enveloping and so strong that it makes the soles of his black Lino Rossi loafers come up off the ground. Bocanegra remains that way for a moment, embracing him in silence. Then he nods emotionally with his head. “Your father would be proud of you, boy. And if your father would be, you can bet I am, too. Don't take it the wrong way, son, but for me you're like some kind of a son. Someone incredibly significant in my life. And we have a lot of years to catch up on.”
Lucas Giraut's face is resting on Mr. Bocanegra's right shoulder, with his chin buried into the long hair of the decidedly feminine coat. Still constrained by the embrace, his eyes meet the gaze of the intern, who is watching them from the other side of the mezzanine railing.
CHAPTER 5. The Dark Side of the Moon
At the very heart of the empire built up over decades by Mr. Bocanegra, Show Business Impresario, at the core of the ever-changing system of cocktail bars, nightclubs and restaurants throughout the Ampurdan that make up that empire, lies The Dark Side of the Moon, standing majestically on its corner in the Upper Ensanche. Flanked by glass commercial buildings with their uniformed doormen and looking out on the traffic of Diagonal Avenue at Vía Augusta from its glazed upper floor. Savage in its defiance of municipal ordinances. Never mentioned in the newspapers. Never the object of neighbors' complaints. Never needing advertising and always far from public opinion, as if The Dark Side of the Moon and public opinion existed in different quantum dimensions. As if they happened in parallel and never were in the same place at the same time. Nothing seems capable of displacing The Dark Side of the Moon from its dominant position in the galaxy of disreputable places in Barcelona's Upper Ensanche.
In The Dark Side of the Moon's private parking lot, Juan de la Cruz Saudade opens the back door of a rental car with tinted windows that is astonishingly similar to the rest of the rental cars with tinted windows that are already parked. Saudade has never seen anyone use the front door of The Dark Side of the Moon. Its clients always go in through the vehicle entrance in the side alley. In the parking garage, Saudade's job consists of taking the keys that the cars' occupants cavalierly deposit in his hand, then showing them the way to the elevator and parking their vehicles. As he parks the cars he tries to damage them slightly, either on the inside or on the outside, in a way that isn't immediately visible. Slight damages that will only be noticed two or three days later.
The car's occupant comes out of the door that Saudade is holding open. He squints under the milky and vaguely iridescent light given off by the garage's fluorescent tubes and then observes Juan de la Cruz Saudade with an expression bordering on horror. Saudade doesn't seem surprised by his reaction. Although technically attractive, his shapely face and tall, slim body are also windows onto a soul that is some sort of industrial oven of hostility. There is nothing remotely kind or friendly in Saudade's features. His reverberating supernova of hostility gleams around his head in exactly the same way that certain venerable old men in remote regions of Asia have an almost tangible aura of beatitude. The guy that just got out of the car takes a step back, intimidated, and his back rams into the side of the car.
“Are you gonna give me the keys or not?”
Saudade puts his hands on his hips, an inappropriate gesture for his position at the very bottom of The Dark Side of the Moon's hierarchical staff pyramid. His technically attractive face is badly shaved. The legs of a pair of powder blue and white Umbro brand sweatpants and some sneakers with worn toes stick out from beneath his corporate jacket.
The Dark Side of the Moon client drops his keys in the palm of Saudade's outstretched hand and hurries off toward the velvet-walled elevator that leads to the main level. Saudade takes a little bottle of cheap scotch from the pocket of his jacket, unscrews the top and takes a swig while thoughtfully watching the man who heads off still sneaking nervous little peeks over his shoulder. Although he is a practicing devotee of all manners of hatred, it is the hatred associated with questions of gender, race and socioeconomic status that Saudade has raised to the level of art. An art as venerable and rich in nuances as, for example, seventeenth-century Flemish pictorial portraiture.
The pounding music from the main floor of The Dark Side of the Moon travels through the walls and floor to the private parking garage. Making everybody down there feel like they are inside a living body. The light is milky and a bit iridescent. Saudade prepares to park the newly arrived car and damage it slightly in the process when another rental car with tinted windows comes in down the private parking garage's ramp. The second car stops with a screech of its tires beside the first one and its back doors open almost simultaneously. Four executive types stumble out from inside. Their business suits show the archetypal signs of executive celebration: ties loosened and pulled to one side; deep red stains on their suit fronts. Their executive hairstyles are unkempt and several locks have escaped from the tyranny of their hair gel. One of them carries an uncorked bottle of Moët et Chandon and drinks straight from the bottle.
“Hey, kid,” shouts one of the executive types from the other side of the car Saudade is about to park. “What's going on? You gonna make me walk all the way over there?”
The four executives start laughing. Their laughter is that strangely shrill, not very masculine laughter that Saudade automatically associates with Piece of Shit Rich Boys laughing at someone who's lower class. It doesn't sound quite like hyenas laughing, more like someone just pretending to laugh. One of the executives slaps himself on the knee. They all wipe tears of hilarity from their cheeks. Saudade's tattooed hand, filled with thick rings, closes tightly around the small bottle of whiskey he has in his jacket pocket. His teeth gnash almost audibly in the middle of the echo-filled private parking garage. At that moment one of the executives with loosened ties and decomposing hairstyles stares at him with his eyes squinted.
“Saudade?” says the executive. “Is that you?”
One of the fluorescent tubes on the private parking garage's roof starts to blink and give off a slight mechanical hum. In that way that fluorescent tubes in parking garages blink and buzz as the prelude to a rape or a shoot-out or one of those violent acts that are usually committed in underground parking garages.
“You know this guy?” asks one of the other executives.
“Damn straight,” says the first one. “Must be five or six years now. He used to do jobs for our company. Special jobs.”
The four executives are silent. A silence filled of respect, cautiousness and curiosity mitigated by the fear of asking the wrong questions. Someone clears their throat. The executive carrying the open bottle of Moët et Chandon in his hand takes a swig.
“Holy shit,” says the executive. “How's it going? You work here now?” he says in a shaky tone. “For Bocanegra?”
Some sort of deep tremor runs through Juan de la Cruz Saudade's tattooed arms and muscular back. The whiskey trembles inside the bottle in his pocket. Most of Saudade's tattoos are drawings or political or even paramilitary slogans associated with his favorite soccer club. The supernova of hate that surrounds his face shrinks to an iridescent, flickering white dwarf. The executive who claims to know Saudade begins to apologize in a voice choked with emotion. A couple of Bocanegra's employees who keep guard by the elevator are now watching the scene with unconcealed curiosity. Saudade's face reminds one of white dwarfs and black holes and all kinds of heavenly bodies that implode in silence and cause galactic cataclysms around them. The blinking of the ceiling's fluorescent tube creates intermittent shadows on the cement floor. One of Bocanegra's elevator operators makes a sarcastic comment. Saudade approaches the group of executives, who remain paralyzed beside their rental car, and holds out a hand with the palm facing up. The executives deposit the keys with the rental company's corporate logo on the key ring and disappear from Saudade's vicinity. After a moment the noise of the elevator is heard.