“So then,” Raed said, dropping down to sit with her, “are we all to become outlaws and live in the forest?”
He laid the back of his hand tentatively on her knee. Along the Bond, his pain sang, but it was tinged with just the slightest hint of hope. She put her palm against his. “Perhaps, or perhaps something altogether different. I have been thinking on a new Order, one with all the strengths of the old one, but with none of the weaknesses.”
She took out the thin piece of wood that the Patternmaker had created in the cellar. The lines were disappearing from it as mud and blood lost its power. Soon enough, it would be useless.
Tracing her fingertip over the fading script, she whispered to him, “Do you realize this is the longest we have spent together without being chased since our time together on the airship?”
His laugh was low. “Here’s to a little more time then. I don’t think we are the only ones who would appreciate it.” He jerked his head to where Merrick and Zofiya were tucked under a tree, talking in low voices. For a moment Sorcha considered them. The Grand Duchess did not look so grand as she once had, but she was smiling, despite the situation. She was the kind of woman who could bounce back from even Derodak’s treatment.
“I hope they can find some happiness,” she said softly, “but unfortunately we cannot give that to them. And there is more…”
This was going to be the hard bit. She looked off into the distance and shared with him what she had heard from one of the scouts the previous day.
“The Wrayth have bred themselves another girl—one that looks something like your sister, and they have raised her in the west. Ten Princes have already defected to her banner.”
She knew that he had worked so hard to stop war washing over Arkaym—sacrificing much to the cause—and yet there it was. Sometimes no matter how hard a person strove, it was not enough.
He looked down at their intertwined hands. “You know, when my mother died under the Rossin’s claws, I thought that was the worst thing that could ever happen to me. Now I am not so sure. Fraine never really had a chance to be a normal person…a good person.”
Sorcha reached up and pulled his head down to rest against her shoulder. She wanted to give him some comfort. She wanted to have some time to cherish what little they’d been able to salvage from the destruction. That mattered more than food or rest.
She’d hunted in these woods, and she knew them very well. Standing up she held out her hand to Raed. “I’ve got something to show you.”
A frown creased his brow, but he got to his feet and allowed himself to be led away from the others. His faltering steps told her that he too was tired.
When they had gone a few minutes from the crowd, into the dappled shade of the forest, he smiled. It was a small hunter’s hut. Not much but woven walls, and a timber and fern roof. It was the kind of place where a lone traveler might find solace for a spell while tracking game.
Sorcha led him to it, unlatched the simple door, and when he was in, closed it behind him. Raed let out a long sigh, and cradled her head in his hands as they leaned against each other, forehead to forehead.
She traced the line of his cheek, and kissed his lips softly. Part of her was afraid that this spell would break and they would be flung apart again. Another part was fearful that they might find their feelings not what they thought.
“You are a good man, Raed,” she said to him, while her fingers unlaced his shirt, “and we all make our own choices in this world.”
He kissed her palm, and then ran his tongue up the inside of her wrist and around her arm, following the curve of the fading runes. He had probably already guessed what she meant to do, and she loved that he had said nothing of it.
They dropped back to the bed, which was merely a pile of heather covered in a blanket, but it felt as good as an Imperial piece of furniture.
“We don’t have long,” he breathed against her skin.
Sorcha nodded, knowing that they must move their ragtag group on soon, but she did not stop undressing him. “But we have enough time,” she replied, somewhat shakily, as his lips descended on her.
It could not be the passionate romp that they’d shared on the Summer Hawk, or even the fumbling delight of their time in Chioma, because they were simply exhausted. However it was its own special moment.
When at last they had sated themselves, kissed, and murmured and reacquainted themselves with each other’s flesh, they left the little hunter’s hut and returned to their companions.
Soon enough they were moving again, heading west once more, toward a series of caves Merrick knew of. Here at least they could make fires, have a little hot food, and everyone could get some sleep.
It was in these caves that Sorcha decided to finally reveal her plan to Merrick and Raed—though both of them, connected so strongly to her through the Bond, already guessed at it. However, she wanted to say the words and tell them because they were her closest companions. They deserved that, and so much more.
It was a long, hard road she was setting them on, but one guided by the past.
Her partner, young and battered though he was, still managed to raise an objection to her plan.
He shook his head. “Sorcha, you can’t know if this worked for your mother or not. She most likely died, and that was why you ended up in the Order. It could have been this process that killed her…”
He was right—she knew that. She’d only seen one vision of Caoirse in the nest of the Wrayth, and she knew deep down that she had died somewhere and somehow shortly after. Still she would not be put off. “It was far more likely to have been childbirth in that dreadful place that did it, and we have to try to get back some of what we’ve lost. The Empire needs the Order. We all know that.”
Her blue eyes held his brown steady for a long moment. Raed stood not far away and remained silent on the matter. Another reason she was falling in love with him—even on this longer acquaintance. The Young Pretender did not try to make her what she was not, or bend her to his will.
The Pattern is gone, and we need the Order. Without them we’ve lost Arkaym.
She pushed the words toward him, but Merrick did not hear them through the fading rune. Sorcha had been complaining and worrying about having the young man in her head ever since she’d made the Bond. Now, it was the thing she wanted most in the world.
“Besides, if this works we can find the Circle of Stars’ Pattern.” She grinned at him wickedly. “Once we do that, we can teach them how dreadfully uncomfortable it is to have that ripped away.”
“At least let me go first.” Merrick glanced over at Ratimana sitting ready and waiting in the corner of the cave. The old man had been cleaned up some, but his eyes still glinted with madness.
“No.” She said it as kindly as she could manage, but maybe a little of the old Sorcha came out in the command. “I am Wrayth—at least a part of me, and like the first Deacon I must be the one to take the risk.”
It hurt to admit to that part of her, but Raed was there. He understood. He had lived his whole life with a geistlord inside him, so whatever little portion she had, she could also make peace with. At least she didn’t have one talking in her head.
She kissed the top of her partner’s head. “I always wanted to be a saint,” she whispered into his ear. “Let me have that chance.”
This statement, said so very seriously, made him burst out into unexpected laughter. When he had recovered himself, Merrick snorted and shook his head. “When I first saw you, that was what I thought. That woman will be a saint one day.”
Sorcha grinned, masking her own lingering concerns, and then stripped off her shirt, quite unconcerned about her nakedness before these men who had seen everything about her. She even pinned up her hair so that the Patternmaker would have nothing to distract him from his work.