While we waited for the light to change, I stared at the shimmering wall of glass caused by sunlight bouncing off the water. It reminded me of a painting I’d seen on a field trip to the Art Institute.
Inside, the lobby hardly resembled art: subsidized housing for retirees and disability pensioners like Pops; decorated on the blech side of ugly in lifeless beige and gray, standard government building colors. Gran often threatened to make a sneak attack on the lobby with a can of rainbow spray paint just to get some life in there.
I wondered again, like I’ve done all my life, what our lives would’ve been like if Pops hadn’t had that accident. He’d been on his way up tier, on his way to becoming Corporate, before it happened. Everything would be so much different, maybe my dad would even still be alive… if only—
“Hey, Nina, what planet are you on?” Sandy tapped my shoulder. “Light’s changed.”
I shook my head back to reality, determined not to let myself get caught up in wishful, impossible thoughts. We hurried across the bridge.
At the entrance, I flashed a cheesy grin into the security panel and put my hand on the auto-recognition pad announcing, “Nina Oberon and guest.” I grabbed Sandy’s shoulders, pointing her face at the panel—she grinned, too.
“Did I tell you last week was Gran and Pops’s anniversary?” I steered her into the revolving door and got in the next compartment. “Thirty-eight years,” I hollered through the glass. Before she could exit, I spun us around a couple more times. We finally whirled out the other side in a fit of laughter. “Most of the time Gran and Pops kind of pick at each other—you know, like those chickens at the zoo.” I picked Sandy’s sleeve and she smacked at my hand, giggling. “But they really love each other.”
“Just because people are married doesn’t mean they’re in love. If Ed loved his wife he wouldn’t be with your mom.”
“Don’t.” I gave her a sideways glance.
“Sorry.”
She knew I hated Ed. More times than I could remember, Ginnie would send me and Dee over to Sandy’s when Ed was coming over. That way we hardly ever saw the full force of his rages. Although I always had a front-row seat for the aftermath. Mostly, I did my best not to think about him. Especially not about him and my mother, together.
“Anyway,” Sandy said, “my mom and dad were in love. I remember how they used to laugh and dance around the house when I was little. Daddy would twirl Mom and then swoop me up with them.” Her face darkened and she jabbed the elport button. “Stupid forays.”
I thought I’d dodged the subject of NonCons after the Resistance’s announcement—guess not. I knew better than to say anything. Sandy’s real dad had been a policeman. When she was five, he and his partner were on a foray in the tunnels under the Chicago River searching for NonCons. Police had been tipped off that there was a pocket of the Resistance living in an underground city hidden in the ancient storm drains. An overflow door got jammed open (on purpose, the Media said) and water poured into the room the cops were in. They all drowned.
Ginnie was sure it was a setup to make it look like NonCons were responsible; she knew they weren’t killers. She might be right, but I’d never say that to Sandy. Besides, Ginnie’s just a cafeteria cashier at Cor-Cem Works, so how would she know something about NonCons that the rest of the world doesn’t?
III
I’d barely pressed the buzzer when the apartment door swung open and there stood Pops leaning on his crutch—holding the GI leg in his hand. “Damn thing, ain’t good for nothin’!” He waved it in our faces and Sandy shrank back into the hallway.
“Pops.” I lowered his arm and whispered, “Please, don’t, you’re scaring Sandy.”
“Huh?” He stopped brandishing the leg and stared at me, confused. I smiled back, waiting for his brain to catch up with his eyes. It took a second. “Little Bit!” He hugged me as best as he could considering the circumstances.
I took the prosthesis and shook it back at him, grinning. “Little bit more than you.” Out of the corner of my eye I saw Sandy looking everywhere except at us. I lowered the leg and urged Pops inside. “Let me help you get this on.” Guiding him to his favorite chair, I asked, “What were you doing at the door like that?”
“Foray. Cops all over the building; I thought you were them again.” He eased himself down onto the cushion. “Didn’t have time to get my leg back on.” Pointing at the top of it, he said, “There’s something irritating there.”
There was always something there. The whole leg was just uncomfortable, from what Gran said. I knelt down beside him and brushed off the nonexistent offending particle—then inspected his stump. “Looks good, Pops.” I handed the prosthesis back to him. “There was a vert silence downtown and a Resistance announcement. That must be what the foray’s about.”
“Guess so.” He snorted. “Supposed to be a NonCon in the building. We’re all too damn old to be NonCons.” He jerked the straps of his prosthesis into place. “Not that I wouldn’t be, mind you, if I had the body parts. Someone needs to put the GC in their place. World’s gone to hell in a—”
“Pops, stop.” If surveillance was aimed at the apartment, those cops would be back in a second. Besides, I didn’t want Sandy to hear him go on about wanting to be a NonCon. She was uncomfortable enough around him as it was.
Fortunately, he noticed her still standing in the hall. “Sorry, little missy, didn’t mean to scare you.”
“I’m fine, Mr. Oberon.” She came inside, but left the door open.
She had on her dutiful face—expressionless with wide eyes. The same one I use when I have to listen to her mother go on and on about her weight and whatever new diet she’s trying. It’s what best friends do—try to ignore the crazies in each other’s family.
“Where’s Gran?” I asked.
“She’ll be right back. Harriet called her after the checker heads left.”
Oh, Pops! Why did he have to insult cops in front of Sandy? He knew about her dad. I snuck a peek; she must not have heard.
“No school today, Little Bit?”
“It’s End-of-Wars Day. We had a choice to take it or Moon Settlement Day off. The class chose today because everything’s still open and there’s plenty to do.”
“Plus”—Sandy finally shut the door behind her—“on MSD we have a big party at school and the AVs tune into our sister school on the Dark Side. My aunt’s a teacher there. It’s the only time I get to see her.”
Pops made a funny half-cough, half-spew sound and grimaced.
He doesn’t think we should have settled the moon, says it’s sacrilegious. I didn’t see anything religious about the moon, or anything else. Religion went out with automobiles, except for people like him and Gran. Sometimes they would go to a tiny church near Grant Park. Gran even reads the Bible. But everyone knows that’s mythology. Although sometimes when I see how good it seems to make Gran feel, I have to wonder if there’s some truth to it.
“I like Moon Settlement Day, too.” I glared at Pops and he averted his eyes, like a little kid who thinks you won’t see him if he isn’t looking at you.
“Moon belongs in the sky without people tromping around all over it.” He pushed his crutch out of the way and hobbled to the window. “When I was a boy…” His shoulders slumped and he leaned his forehead on the glass. “Eh… everything’s changed,” he muttered.
Sandy gave me her I-told-you-he’s-weird look. I feigned indifference, but my insides clutched. He looked so wretched.
The door opened behind us and in came Gran. I rushed into her arms, burying my face in the crook between her shoulder and neck. Enveloped in her warmth, I felt five again, when her hugs fixed everything. Part of me could’ve stayed there forever.