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Do not try to overhear

Secrets sung and secrets said,

Do not try to watch the way

Maidens dance and maidens play.

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She never thought—what was their song for?

The ringing voices passed her by.

Tatyana now could only long for

The tremor in her heart to die

And for her cheeks to cease their burning.

But in her breast the pain kept churning,

Warmth in her cheeks did not disperse,

Indeed it blazed up even worse.

Thus a poor butterfly will shimmer

And give one rainbow wing a flap

When caught in a rough schoolboy’s trap.

Thus, in the corn, a hare will quiver

When from afar he sees what’s what—

There in the bushes huntsmen squat. 41

But soon she gave a sigh of yearning

And stood up from the garden seat.

She walked away… The path, the turning,

The avenue… Whom should she meet

But him, with eyes ablaze—Yevgeny!—

A presence ominous and shady.

As if scorched by some fiery bolt,

She staggered slowly to a halt.

But… what came next, that subject matter

Lies at this time beyond my strength;

I cannot tell it now, my friends.

Having indulged in so much chatter,

I need to rest and have some fun.

I’ll finish this off later on.

* She was a girl, she was in love. (French.)

CHAPTER FOUR

La morale est dans la nature des choses.*

NECKER

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The less we prize and love a woman

The more she’ll like us, and perhaps

The more she’ll be inclined to come on,

Lured into our enticing traps.

It used to be that cold seduction

Counted as amorous instruction,

Vaunting itself, consisting of

Enjoyment not involving love,

But this game, once a major pastime

Was suited to the apes of old

Much praised in granddad’s days. Behold,

Lovelace was cast off for the last time

Along with red heels flashed in jigs

And all those splendid periwigs. 8

Who isn’t weary of pretending,

Repeating things that all men know,

Convincing people without ending

Of what convinced them long ago?

Attending to the same objections,

Rejecting age-old preconceptions,

Which are not, and have never been,

Believed by young girls of thirteen?

Who does not quail before dire warnings,

Entreaties, fleeting fears and oaths,

Or seven pages filled with notes,

Deceit, rings, tears and gossips droning,

While mothers watch and aunts attend

And husbands wear you down as friends? 9

These very thoughts came to afflict him.

From early youth he’d always been

Stormy and wild, a willing victim

Of passions that he let run free.

Life spoilt him, yielding what he wanted.

With one thing for a while enchanted,

Then disenchanted with the next,

He let desire cool by neglect,

The more so when he waxed successful.

No noise nor silence could control

The incessant murmur of his soul.

Laughing through yawns had seemed less stressful,

But eight killed years had been, in truth,

The best bloom of his wasted youth. 10

When love of girls no longer reckoned

He sort of followed in their tracks:

Rejected, he came round in seconds;

Let down by them, he would relax.

He sought them out with no enthusing

And didn’t grieve much at their losing—

Love or rebuffs were quick to fade.

He, a bored guest who, having played,

An evening’s whist with everybody,

Sits there until the game is done,

Then sets off on his homeward run,

Soon settled and serenely nodding,

Though come the dawn he doesn’t know

Where in the evening he will go. 11

Her missive, though, had left him anguished.

Onegin felt moved and distraught,

For those dreams and the girlish language

Had raised in him a swarm of thoughts.

He well remembered dear Tatyana,

Her sad complexion and her pallor,

And suddenly his spirit seemed

Flooded with sweet and spotless dreams.

Was this his long-lost ardour? Will it

Take hold of him for a short time?

He had no wish to undermine

The trust of one so pure in spirit.

But let us to the garden skim,

Where our Tatyana met with him. 12

Some moments passed while they both listened,

Then he came up to her and said,

“Let’s talk about what you have written…

No, please don’t run away… I’ve read

Words from a trusting soul confessing

Pure innocence and love, expressing

Sincerity, which I admire

And which has somehow brought new fire

To feelings long since unawoken.

This is not praise in any sense,

But now I come without pretence,

Speaking to you by the same token.

Please, hear me out while I confess.

Then what I am—you can assess. 13

If my life’s purpose had been rather

To shrink in a domestic round,

If as a husband and a father

Kind destiny had set me down,

If the domestic hearth had beckoned

And caught my fancy for a second,

I could have chosen, it is true,

No bride more suitable than you.

I tell you with no frills and fancies:

Taking an ideal from the past,

I surely would have held you fast,

A soulmate facing life’s mischances,

A guarantee of all things good.

I’d have been happy—if I could! 14

But no. I was not born and nurtured

For bliss—my soul dismisses it.

I look in vain upon your virtues,

Unworthy of them and unfit.

Believe me—conscience grips like bedrock—

We’d have been agonized by wedlock.

I might have loved you once, and then

From habit unloved you again,

And you’d have wept, but my heart, frozen,

Would not let your tears to do their work;

In fact the tears would only irk.

Consider, then, what thorny roses

Hymen would scatter in our way,

Alas, perhaps for many a day. 15

Can there be anything more disheartening

Than households where the wretched wife

Is saddened by a useless partner

And daily leads a lonely life,

Where the dull spouse, who knows her value

(Though Fate’s unkind to him, he’ll tell you),

Sits there without a word and sulks?

Tetchy, cold, touchy—how he bulks!

That’s me. Do you seek such a person,

Deep in your pure and fervent soul?

Your letter was so clear and bold,

Intelligent… But are you certain

That this is how your life should be

Apportioned by harsh Destiny? 16

Dreams and lost years can’t be recovered.

My spirit cannot be restored…

I love you like a loving brother.

(Perhaps I love you rather more.)

Hear me. I ask you to be patient:

Young girls are prone to transformations

When airy dreams chase airy dreams

Like saplings changing all their leaves

Each year in springtime, all-refreshing

And moved, it seems, by Heaven’s will.

So, you will love again. But still…

Study the art of self-possession.

I understand you; some may not.

Unworldliness can hurt a lot.” 17

Thus, like a preacher, spoke Yevgeny.

Eyes blinded, as the salt tears choked,

Tatyana, breathless, uncomplaining,

Was listening to him as he spoke.

He gave his arm. Far from ecstatic,